Time for Miracle

2010-08-22T00:27:00.000+08:00

Hello! It had been a month ever since i last updated my blog. Well~ it'd been a really busy recently... studying, having school till 9pm almost everyday.

No doubt, O levels are around the corner... Just another 2 more months! >.<

Had been definitely feeling much exhausted recently as compared to previously. The momentum is definitely speeding up as i countdown for my National examinations. As much as for all my peers, esp my classmates, we've became much more bonded as a whole. Constant encouragements & supports are heard among all of us day in & out. It makes me feel warm & bless, as i know i'm not alone in this.

Preparation examinations indeed demoralized me in a way, but it gives me more determinations to continue in fighting on. Glad that I've been improving in a way, thou not all subjects. =/

Got back my O level MT result on wed. Oral DISTINCTION, overall grade B3! Cheerful, i'm happy! However, feeling tired of sitting on the MT papers again..since i'd sat it last year. Sure, i'll be taking it again this Nov. To hope for a Distinction since it'll be easier as my oral was a distinction. Got the supports from some MT teachers & peers...family members too... =) Pray that the $24 will be worth!

Went to Bonitochico's 4th Birthday Bash today with shortie Grace @ The Zirca; Clark Quey. Although had to queue for almost an hour, but was definitely worth the waiting. A couple of middle 20yrs ladies in front of us when queuing who almost ruin Grace & my mood. Well... like wad Grace said..."such a pity for them".

Got to see fashion shows of their new collection- Love Bonito. Models really looked pretty. Didnt take any photos of them as the place were packed.

Took a photo with the Main founders of Bonitochico- Velda, Viola & Rachel. They just looked gorgeous. (More pics were uploaded on FB.)

Overall: GREAT!

Went to Suntec for dinner @ a Korean Restaurant & back HSH! =))

Tomorrow will be back to study day! Hope i'll be able to get through all these. Hahs!

Came across a quote @ the train & found it meaningful:

"It is our attitude at the beginning of a difficult task which, more than anything else, will affect its successful outcome."

So i'll update till here then! Tadas! Nights peeps! =))

2010-07-18T21:02:00.000+08:00

Long week, hard week, tired week.

Think n think n think, just could think of this 3 adjectives to describe this couple of weeks.

Losing u is a pain, a torture. When i saw de msg on the day, my mind was a complete blank. Although all of us predicted that this day will come sooner or later, but none of us ever thought that it was going to be that fast.

Someone whom we dearly love, dearly miss n dearly respect. Ah Gong! i really miss u alot. I miss ur laughter, ur voice, ur smile, ur handwritings, i miss ur everything. Most of all, i miss calling u "Ah gong". For u, u never once despise anyone of us, u never once forget us. Alternatively, u can recite all of our names. For how many grandparents could actually remember all of their kids, grandchildren n great-grandchildren's names. Somemore, u have 14kids, 7 daughters-in laws n son-in laws, 32 grandchildren, 10+ great-grandchildrens. U are definitely dearly miss by all of us.

As for now, we will take good care of ah ma. Will accompany her more when i'm free. As for u, rest in peace. U dun need to feel de pain n torture already. U'd been so strong to endure all this sufferings. So now, R.I.P ah gong.

To our dearest ah gong, We Love U & We Miss You!...u'll always be in our hearts.

Leaving with 3 months to Olevel examinations, there is no time to waste. Have been staying in sch till late afternoon for de pass few weekdays. Think that this will substain till after Olevels. Jyjy! =))

Okay. guess i'll be posting till here. Nights! =)

Tadas!...

2010-07-02T23:06:00.002+08:00

Is the starting of semester 2. Which means that exams are nearing though it seems far from now. Just the end of the first week of school literally makes me kind of stress already. Tests~remedials~extra lessons~tutions~homeworks~ are like increasing their speed to come forward to me. Relatively, have been feeling the same way at the end of everyday. *EXHAUSTED*.

Feeling exhausted just after everyday. Is just like my full energy have already been used up completely with all the lessons, extra lesson and after sch works.

Got my Olevel entry proof at the first day of Semester 2. Mother tongue oral and listening will be in a couple of weeks from now. English oral starts on mid of next month. Prep on the 29th of this month and following by Prelims. Just frankly have no much time of resting and activities. However at least with one of two days out to shop per week. Even if to take a few hours of to go out for a walk or to catch a movie with friends, at least is just better den none.

Doesn't mean that i'm afraid of the workloads and exams i'm going to have. I'm not afraid as i knew i'm not in this alone. Is just an every year process which each batch of students will face. So it just that it will be my turn this year and i just want to pretty well get it over and done with (:

Lots of people tell me : *Do It Once, Do It Well and Do It Right. Just and get it over and done with!*...

Well, just the last few metres of race and that will be all for my secondary school education. I'll just need to preserve and tolerate all the hardships till the end of this year and i believe, all my hard work will be pay off when i get my results next year. =)

Went to watch Ecplise just now with Grace, Ruiyuan and Mingyang. Well~ It was definitely a fabulous show =) As it changed its producer and everything except actors and actresses, it's definitely worthwhile! (: To me, it's better than Twilight and New Moon! I'm looking forward to the next series.

Well..^^ will stop here for now. Gonna sleep early tonight. Nighty! (:

2010-06-14T21:08:00.000+08:00

Had been a week ever since i update my blog.

Since de Crazy Grace asked me to update, so here i am.... (:

When to catch Nanny McPhee & the big band with Grace. Is a nice show, i must admit! =)

This holiday have been both good n bad for me. Have been a busy, yet boring one at times.

Indeed...it had been a worry one. =(

Grandpa had recently been admitted into de hospital once again. For those who are concern about his health. Well~ i can only said that for this moment of time, his condition is still under control. However, there is no hope for him to get well again, as told by his doctor in charge. From wad we know, his lungs had been seriously failing from worse to worst, n his kidneys are starting to deteriorate too. Worst still, his sort of only "surviving kit" now is his pair of kidneys. Once his kidneys have completely fail, den........de worst of de worst will happen. Which i keep praying it wont.

Have been going in n out of hospital to visit him this few days. Seeing him in this state, really ache all of us alot. Esp mummy... she has been always looking brave n strong...but i know, she is upset compared to anyone of us... Together with my aunties n uncles, as grandpa is their daddy afterall... =/

"Get well soon Ah gong!"

This hol had also been a busy one.. Tons of hwks to do n maths tution going on. Well~ Is needed of course. Just for a few more months before de actual Olevels. Had to set my engine to de Max n keep my momentem spinning. (:

Also, it had been a "missing" one to. The defination of this "missing", is "thinking"...

Everytime i passed by that place, de first person i always think of is u. However there will always be a 50-50 chance if will i be able to see u. & when i get to see u, even though just for a few seconds, i'm contented, because i know that de latest of u will be kept inside my mind till de next time i see u.

Always tell myself that a few more months, i'll be back there. But a ques lies... Will u still be there?

Quote from movie (Nanny McPhee) :
"When u need me, but u dun want me, I'll have to stay. When u dun need me, but u want me, I'll have to go".

2010-06-06T22:03:00.000+08:00

Had a really awesome day yesterday (: B'cos is Grace's b'dae party! (BBQ at Kenny's).

Well~ dun really wish to talk much abt it. Though is tired but is seriously fantastic. I bet our "main character" must had a very touched n enjoyable day. HAHA! =)

*Happy Seventeenth my Darling Grace* :)

Anyway, de best part was that Jenny was with us toooo! =))) Happy thousand times! Hahs.

p.s. wanted to post some photos up here but stupid system wont allow me too =( Will try to re-edit this post tmr. However, photos had already been posted up to FB :)

"Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart." - Anon

2010-05-23T22:50:00.000+08:00

MYE had ended, results were all taken back. So i guess is time for me to pick up this urgent wake up call. Had to focus and work doubly hard. (:

As i believe in myself, i believe that i can do it. Well..although words dun shows with actions. Thus, i'll definitely find ways to prove it. Hmmm...as for wad ways...shhhhh! *it's a secret* that i wont reveal until i've show the results. Not that i dun want to say, but it's something to keep me motivated to do well ;)

June hols are coming but is definitely not a holiday for me. Had to go back to sch during the first two weeks n will definitely have piles of hwks waiting for me.

Olevel MT examination is a week's time. Wish me luck! =p

Workplace(EK) had also called me back to work during June hols due to lack of manpower in my department. Well~had already sent in my available dates & will just had to wait for de schedule to be out. (:

p.s. the pic above portrays a message to me that "as long as u believe in yourself, you will succeed because, BElieve in YOUself...(BE YOU)".

2010-05-14T21:16:00.000+08:00

Hooray! Mid-year exams are over for good. Having to prepare for weeks is real tedious. But well~it is definitely a good start for me to prepare for my OLevels which is in less than 6 months time.

Nevertheless, NO sch on Monday as it will be marking day. Hence, can definitely take this few days to at least take a break before starting again (:

To my dearest "nu-er": Jiayou jiayou b'cos i'll always be here for u. No matter what path u are to choose at the end of the day, i'll be here to give you my fullest support. I just cant bare to always see you confuse n upset.

Love love o.o~ (:

!Is always the dignity of choice!

"love can make a person become indecisive & uncertain"

2010-05-09T01:23:00.001+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

"No gift to your mother can ever equal her gift to you- LIFE!"

All de mothers in de world are the most admirable? Dun u agree? =)

Having a hardship for 9months and welcoming you to the world with and open arms. Sounds contradicting? Haha of course not. They definitely felt bless n full with happiness. Because they knew that whatever pain they have before that had already been vanished away from de moment they hear your cries when u entered to this world.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all the mothers in de world because u all are the ones who deserves our respects and love.

!!To my mummy, You are the best of de best! No matter how you had hit me when i was young, scold n nag me, i'll always send this 3 words to u.

And is I LOVE YOU!

Thanks for everything and you're de best! (: MUACKZ!

2010-05-03T22:57:00.000+08:00

Have any of u ever thought of the true definition of a true complete family kinship?...

Just seriously feel tired. Sometimes, i just feel like moving out. But....is just impossible. Hmmm...forget it. Dun wish to talk abt it.

Anw, why are u always de first one who will be there when something happen... Really felt bless to have u as a friend beside me =)

N to Xinyi hubby... U'll always be there for me too & i really thank u alot. Loveyou (:

P.s...dun worry abt me. Cos i'll be fine soon.

2010-04-28T21:34:00.000+08:00

Had really been a long day today... Not only today, but it had really been a long run. Nevertheless, still running on de track. At times, i do feel like slowing my steps down n stop.

However i know i cant. =)

This "running" have indeed show improvements in my results lately n had been a great satisfaction to me. It had also brought me a slightly higher confident to myself compared to a couple of mths ago. ^^

Working hard together with my darling Grace, helping each other. Started to revise on our work. Not only for MYE, but also, prep...prelims...or rather, Olevels. Though at times we feel like as though we're struggling but we are definitely not giving up until Olevels is here (:

Well... "What u believe is What u'll achieve" :)

Anyway, b4 i go off,....

"Hisham, u better take care of urself. HAHA! Drink lots of water..." =)

Okays, gtg..

Tadas!~

2010-04-13T18:44:00.001+08:00

Brief summary for today:

Went to sch as per normal. Didnt feel well early in de morning already. Worse in the noon. Currently, even WORST!

Lessons are smooth today. Eng test was manageable. Cher forgot all about having a Vector Test today, so there wasnt any maths test today. Physics practical was fun =)

Mrs Ang came to talk to me about my Chem test's result. Well~ duno how to reply her. Cos all i knew was i did study. But....hmmm...maybe i didnt study deeply enough ba. Want to try harder ba.. though no motivation le.

Decided not to go cca today, instead went to see a doc cos i feeling damm terrible!

Okays. update till here den. Gtg rest rest n rest... so i can be refresh on Thur in sch again! :)

p.s.. cant 3 of us be back to how we were? >.<

"2 out of 3 is still incomplete"

2010-04-13T18:36:00.000+08:00

Wad will u do, when u felt like giving up but u know yourself that u cant; is important...but u already duno wad to do?....

Just like Chemistry....i already dun have de motivation to keep chiong-ing for this subject le. Why issit that i study so hard but end up nth change better. Wondering myself issit i didnt study enough? Or...hmmm.

I knew i shouldnt lost faith in it. I should have more perservance... but i'm tired.

Next week got another Chem test, and i'm going to tell myself that "I'll push myself to pass this time round!".

To tell myself, GAMBANEH JOLENE!. Jiayou Jiayou! (:

P.s. Got again 2 days MC. Today n tmr. Hais... Body is getting weaker n busier le. Got to tahan till de end. Till Os is over. ^^

2010-04-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

Wahahahaha!~ Just came back from a whole day at Bugis with mummy, auntie n cousins. It had been a long long time ever since i can go out with them. Definitely, i missed work too~ :/ Missed all de fun n excitements too!

When to bugis to pray and then to a restraunt to have our lunch. Went shopping after that den pedicure. Manage to buy a shirt and a dress! *happy happy*!...

For tmr, meeting Grace to study and then had an appointment for spa in de evening! *Hooly goodly!* =D

Monday have chem test again. Wish me luck (:

*Reason for posting this pic*....

We may think that there is still lots of time....

but actually is just that the road we see is far.

Everyone certainly hope that we can go back to history,

but in actual fact, nothing can be change for wad had happened.

However, I only know that we can make and change our future,

from our hard work and efforts.

For now, i duno wad may happen or will happen in de future.

However, i only have 7 words to explain it...

Which is......

"I'll just go with the flow..." =)

2010-03-28T01:07:00.000+08:00

At times, you just hope that someday wont arrive. Alternatively, at the same point in time, you will still hope that the day will come. Probably because of someone, something, or some place that you know you will definitely miss and wont bare to leave.

13 more hours, I know I'll be stepping in to Ek-to work. 8hours after the 13hours, I will know that I wont step into punch in my card anymore till probably 8months later, or never.

Is always the fun, that makes you cant bare to leave. Is also because the people there, that leads you to miss them alot.

Is always the people that you really cherish there, that leads you to treasure the 8hours with them during work tmr.

I know I'll be back, but certainly, I'll miss!

However thankfully, those people who are working tmr, some are the ones whom i hope that they will be there. Although some, are not.

I'll study hard n definitely be back! =)

Must wait for me to be back, I'll pray hard that you all wont leave. Esp..... (:

Love a bruch of crazy n fun peeps ALOT!...

2010-03-28T00:55:00.000+08:00

This show...is definitely nice! =D 5 stars ***** !

Woke up in the morning and met Grace. Bused to WS then found out that i forgot to bring my project board out. Bused back to get it and headed to DTE to meet group members. (Sotong ME!!...) =p

Started to draw out the story board. Didnt know time past so fast. Without realising it, it's already 3plus.

Packed up and when separated ways. Grace n me then headed off to tamp b'cos there was still spare time before meeting Ry n Kenny for movie =)

Movie was really great after all. TOOTHLESS IS CUTE!! =D

Continued with our project after movie while the guys headed to play their pool game. Came up to find us around 11plus and walked HSH. =)

Now, going to sleep le. Tadas! =)

2010-03-27T00:34:00.000+08:00

"When something is not destinated to be together, den dont be"...

I know I'd hurt you badly. However, i want to thank you for respecting my decision and let me go.

I'm sorry that i cant lock you in my heart. I just dont want to be unfair to you and lie to you. I would rather tell you the truth that i actually realise that my mind is not you. Everything is probably just a 'mistake' from the start.

I swear is not a rush decision. Is definitely after much long considerations.

I will rather just remain as friends.

Thanks for loving me and doting me. But i'm sorry to return you a hurt instead.

I wish you all the best!

2010-03-19T00:37:00.000+08:00

Is not i dun accept... is just that i'm still adapting..

Is not that i dun realise.. but is because i need u to understand....

Is de fact that our mindset is different,

but i need u to see wad i'm always seeing when i'm doing the same in u too...

I knew i'm fortunate..but i just dun want to be too fortunate.

Because i'm scared that i might ask for even more than u can substain...

2010-03-19T00:16:00.001+08:00

Had ample fun with the 2 girls this few days.. It'd seriously been a long long time ever since all 3 of us are so crazy having fun & laughing upsize down. =P

"Friendship is essentially a Partnership...."

Had been a really busy week... study study study with cliques and had seriously no time to spare with B. Sometimes, i seriously hope i'll have ample time to balance equally with my studies, friends, family n him. However, is always de case that I'll always need to neglect some of them which i can only say SORRY.

Term 1 results hadn't been that great and definitely lots of catching n brushing up must be started... 2 more months to olevel's MT papers and around 6-7 more months to National Exams... Hence, i can only said that my piority now is to study... either at home or with clique.. just study n study. ^^ Wish me lucks o.o =D

Next, this 2 days, mindsets n thinkings had been irritating... Just kept thinking of "someone" and "somethings" that i shouldnt even think of, that had placed a full-stop 6months ago...

Frankly, only told Grace about it... said was normal cos i hadn't really gotten over 100%.. But who knows, time heals...and..i just have to wait till time really heals me totally..

"Memories are memories, something that had been stopped wont turn back... No one knows wad will happen in de future.. But for now, currently, at this point in time.. i only want to love my one n only him..."

Thus, gtg le.. will just post till here.

Working PM tmr =/ needa have my beauty sleep den..

Night night! Tadas! =)

"Time is like a river.

You cannot touch the same water twice,

because the flow that has passed will never pass again.

Enjoy every moment of life...."

2010-03-10T23:30:00.003+08:00

Hugging u is the best thing that i can have in u.

Everytime i hug u, i feel the warm n secure when u hug me back tightly.

Feeling that i belong to your whole world.

However, i just realised that i'm so selfish that i wont want to share any of this hug(s) to anyone.

Just came back from outside...

Tons n tons of hwks are like everywhere...

Full n full of lessons are lining up, waiting for us.

I just need a break.. a real break where all troubles n doubts could just clear away for that while.. evern for a few mins, or seconds.

Suddenly feeling the stress n pressure... Can someone tell me when all these will end? I just want Olevel to end faster....

iloveyou

2010-03-01T23:37:00.001+08:00

Everything happens for a reason, so just take it naturally because you will never know that it might turns out right.

B, it'd been a month plus

and i just want to tell you that i had never regret for accepting you.

I'd never regret to have you as my bf. =)

I seriously felt bless...

Though you might do "things" which i do not like..

But I'm glad that you are willing to forgo it for me.

I just hope that this will last ike how issit now.

watashi ando anata ni gaitō suru baai wo taisetsu ni shi tai .

mottomo jūyō na no wa "watashi wa anata no ai "desu .

2010-02-25T22:56:00.000+08:00

"Just hated the feeling like I'm being control"...

Sorry to say that but is just a thought n feeling i want to say it out.

Know you care n i appreciated it. However, it just the fact that I rather u care for yourself now. So what if it's a habit of yours.

When I asked u to rest early, your respond honestly makes me upset. But i didnt sound anything cos i knew i need to respect u. Not that i dun care, but just a simple respect to u.

Similarly, I want this simple respect from u too... Not to escape de fact that i was rather pissed just now.

I just want to say it out, to say my feelings out. So that to hope that u'll understand.

Sorry...but then, is just my feelings...

Went to watch 72 Tenents of Prosperity with B, Grace n ry! =D Had to definitely agree that it is a good movie n was very funny. HAHA!!...

Went to Grace's house for dinner after that. "Yum Yum" =P

Revised my phyiscs n now my Chem. HSH after that....

Graceyyy going Genting tmr..will only be back on Sunday..

一路顺风 o.o... And Have fun o.o =DD

"miira wo ketsujō suru koto ni"

Loveyou!! =)

Okay..gtg study chem now le.

Tadas!! =D

2010-02-24T00:23:00.001+08:00

Happy 1st Monthsary!! =D

Baby, 我愛你! I really do love you alot.
Being able to successfully walked thru this first month, is definitely not easy. However, honestly, I didnt regret for knowing u n being with u trying to accept u.
Being able to know u is really a miracle. B'cos seriously, u're the one who really let me put down the things that happened in the past & gave me faith to re-enter into love again.

Lastly, although no one knows how long can this r/s last, but i just want to tell u that i want to cherish every moment truthfully n sweetly with you.

"Eu te amo... Eu só quero te amar de todo coração!!!"

2010-02-21T23:06:00.000+08:00

"When u believed, nothing will be impossible."

Most importantly is... There is NO one in this world who dun deserve to be loved.

Similarly, there is NO one in this world who dun deserve to be in a r/s.

B, u really scare me alot last night.

Let's forget about it and

I dun want wad happened last night to happen again.

From last night, I really knew how much you meant to me.

Is seriously alot & dun doubt it.

Iloveyou!

2010-02-17T23:58:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2ND MONTHSARY XINYI HUBBBYYYY~~!!! =D

Time flies & i'd knew u for almost 4months le. Nothing to say but i just want to thank you for EVERYTHING u'd did for me. Thanks for being my listening ear! ILOVEYOU!!! =))

(Promise u that this (171209) will continue forever!!~~)

This few weeks had been tedious n tiring...Although had lots of fun here n there, but is still tiring esp work PLUS study!...

Had decided to TEMPORARY stop working after the month of April just to concentrate on studying le... Study STUDY!!

Common Tests are already apporaching and will be having Eng n POA papers on Friday.. Had CNY gathering at my house at night. =D Yippee!!

Saturday will definitely be a tired day for me. Although no work, but got CIP in the morning from 10.30am - 4pm. Needa go home change den bus to Yishun to my auntie's house to bai nian. Still needa study for my paper on Monday!! Arghhh!! ^^

Sunday also not working.. Will be meeting B out! HEHE!! Also needa revise abit more at night for my paper the following day o.o =p

Okay! Will stop posting here le...

Tadas~~!

(240110)

ONE MORE WEEK TO 1st MONTH!! =D

Dear, ily! <3333

2010-02-11T23:22:00.001+08:00

I LOVE ALL OF THEM....

ESP MY 2 LOVELY GIRLS! =D

Though actual birthday had already been over, but the real fun is TODAY! (one day after my birthday)

The surprises all of them had given me is countless! N really~...is appreciated! =)

From yesterday's lovely surprise from B to today's BIG surprises from all of them, I'd proudly strike out my another wish on my blog's wishlist. =D (*peace*)

Today: Went home after sch, pack my study table, clean my bedside table...

Went to had a hair cut today! Not much difference but at least is more tidy n well-trim! =)

Stayed at home to read my Shadowland den here came my "surprise"... Was inside my room for more than an hour. B'cos i'm not suppose to go outside. =p

Tmr: Going to sch as per normal.. Going to work after that from 3-10pm! (Wish me luck) =D

Okay, GTG!..

Tadas~~

i duno why u'd to spoilt my mood once u stepped back into the house when all of us are in de middle of fun. Just because of your kitchen is quite oily doesn't mean you had to show a face in front of all of them. They are all someone who are important to me in my life now. At least show them some respect n leave me some face. They came just to give me a birthday surprise which u didnt give...You dun let me have fun but all u did was to just spoilt all de fun n making me PEK CEK!!!

Dear,

ily~ Today seems like it didnt go well for us.

But i was really shock when u appear at my house.

Is appreciated n dun worry about me.

I'll soon be alright!..

another thing is,

it doesn't mean when i say dun want to meet means there is something all wad.

Just that...i need u to understand kays?

You will miss me i know,

definitely. I'll miss u too...

*muackz*

"Love is to think about someone else more times in a day than you think about yourself....."

(dear, get wad i mean? )

2010-02-10T23:40:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SEVENTEEN BIRTHDAY TO ME!! =D

Okay well, finally 17 le..

As usual, sch as per normal. However, just wasn't in a very happy mood in the morning. Only after like lunch break den mood started to brighten up.

Reason being..... they wasn't in sch. Hmmm!..

Was quite upset n unhappy literally..but...nothing could be change so just forget it ba.

Vivitha n Priya were sweet!...sang birthday song to me early in the morning.. (:

Shirleen & Georgina too... never failed to try n cheer me up. =D

Thanks to the people who wishes me, be it by sms, fb wall post or face to face! Is appreciated n love all of u loads!

B came to fetch me after sch. I den went back home to bath n change den out to Tamp. Got an unexpected surprise from him. So sweet of him. Thanks B!

Managed to buy my last set of CNY clothes!. Like finally!.. YEAH!! (:

Went to BBQ chicken for dinner n Pasir Ris Park to play swing! =D

Went HSH after that.

Tomorrow, Chem Test!...

My that 2 "NU ERs" planning something after sch.. Will see wad they are up to.. =p

N anyway, haven blow candles lo.. =/ LOL!!...

Okay den.. will stop here le..

TADAS! =D

dear,

thanks for de b'dae surprise n gift.

Is appreciated!

n, You're de best!.

ily~

2010-02-09T22:37:00.000+08:00

I just want you to be happy.

~ily~

P.s: 1 HOUR to SEVENTEEN!! =D

2010-02-03T22:14:00.000+08:00

When 2 hearts became 1!~

Hi! Here to update my blog again. Didnt go to sch today. Like wad i'd mention in the earlier post...was on 2 days Mc.

Will be going back to sch tmr le. Provided when i'm awake tmr i'm feeling much better lo. B'cos currently still rather weak n my cough n throat are definitely killing me. =(

Woke up at 11plus today by the call from B. =.= Ate lunch den medicine. Met B for awhile around 1plus. Finally finished watching my "ting shuo" le.. Hee! =)

Went HSH after that around 3plus cos B needa head to SYFC for his flight training. So well...went home n watched "Xia dao siao" with bro. Wasn't very nice though did kena scare by one of de scene.

Carried on the read my Blue Moon after that n slack awhile to watch tv. Ate dinner n did my To-Do list after that. Revise abit of my work here n there den was glue to de tv after that. =p

Ate medicine n decided to update a short post.

Hence will stop till here le. Gtg sleep liao le.

Tadas!

P.s. hope i can go to sch tmr. ^^ I WANT TO GET WELL SOOOONNNNNN....~~

*Got a phone call from sweet today n said that she had booked me on this Sat after work. Yeah! It had been a long time ever since i saw her le. Wonder wad she n de clique are up to.

EXACTLY 1 WEEK TO SEVENTEEN!! =D

~~know u care about me~~

~~n is worried about me due to my sickness...~~

~~but,~~

~~i just want u to concentrate more~~

~~on your sch work n your flight training kays?~~

~~ILY~~~

2010-02-02T19:53:00.002+08:00

Hi, back to blogging... Went to sch n came back after recess. Wasn't feeling well. Went to see a doctor n he gave me 2 days MC.

[Should i be happy leh or should i feel sad?]

Reached home and went to bath...ate medicine n went to bed. Slept for 5 hours n woke up at 6pm. Called B for awhile cos got missed call from him. Knew about something from him n just hope i can be there for him.

Not going to sch tmr le. For as far as i know, should be staying home and rest ba. Didnt get proper sleep n rest ever since last week. So, is time to actually get some proper rest before studying and approaching more challenges again ba.

(somehow, is never wrong that one should fall ill some time...as it will really made that person feel much more calm n relax...and will definitely gain more energy to keep going.)

Birthday approaching in a week's time le. That 2 "daughters" of mine also started to plan for my celebration on the 21st le. Though is celebrating late but no choice cos my b'dae is always near CNY. B also giving me surprise(s)...hmmm wonder what he is up to..Or rather, wonder wad they are up to... (:

Okay ba...guess i'll stop here for today. Will update more soon. =D

Tadas~!

~~i seriously felt helpless~~

~~when i couldn't help u in relieving your stress.~~

~~wad should i do leh...?~~

~~I know i should tc of myself n i'll de.~~

~~I wont let u worry de.~~

i love you! <333

2010-02-01T00:02:00.001+08:00

Hi!...long time ever since i last posted le...

Stuffs had been great recently.. (i..guess...) =D

Sec one camp was GREAT afterall. Although there were some havoc here n there. Annnddd....thank god i still had my voice.. HAHA! =p

Honestly had been busy these few days as seriously had lots lots of things to do. Beside sch hwk and work, Grace n me definitely spent alot of time on Mille's b'dae planning. However definitely, everything had been paid off worthly.. =D

(Not bad in being a first timer organizers hor grace? =p)

Another thing is, had to start studying le.. Or rather, after CNY hols, had to start studying like real madly liao le... No time to slack lo.. ^^

Also, thinking of having to work on the second day of CNY n on CNY eve really made me feel very sian ><

However, no choice ar. Had to work no matter wad.. Hmm!

Hao ba, guess will just end of here liao le... this week will be a long long week for me. =p

Tadas!~

P.S. Mao!..hope u had fun and enjoyed wad both Grace n me planned for u for today. WE LOVE YOU!!! =D

~~dearie,~~

~~nth much to add on for us....~~

~~but just to said~~

~~i really love u more n more each day.~~

~~Thanks for everything!~~

2010-01-25T23:29:00.001+08:00

Alright,...back to posting again.

Long day~ super duper exhausted...

Currently, worrying about 2 people. First is HIM n second is my sotong "daughter"... Though not much things happened, but that ONE thing had already lead my "daughter" to heartbreaking moments le.

Takecarreee o.o ^^

Second thoughts, guess wont want to mention why am i worry about HIM le...cos i duno de full story yet...

Anyway...??HIM??...yea okay.

Every 24th!... =)

Had returned back to the life of putting someone inside my heart. Having to consider for quite some time, i'd eventually decided to give it a try. Although i duno how everything will be, nor if things between us will turn out right, but i just want to give it a try. To be fair to u and so i decided to board this "bus"...

So, we will see how things will turn out to be like between us alright B? (:

Randomly:~~ For wad i knew, Camille n Grace were super happy b'cos they had a "daddy" already.. =.= And literally i duno when did i had 2 "daughters" appearing infront of me and calling me "mama"... -.-" Okay...is super random.. =p

Hence, guess will just stop here for today. Will post more when free ba..

(maybe after my level camp) =D

24th Jan 2010(Sunday),

9.30pm

I hope u will be true to me in any n everything

to tell u that i truely loveyou! ^^

2010-01-24T00:59:00.001+08:00

Hi! Back to posting after so long... Had been real busy these days esp when it comes to sch. However neverthelees, i knew it will all be worth at the end of the year. (:

Next week's schedule is real real tight. Lots of stuffs to do, lots of things to prepare for and level camp is just next week!... Busy busy busy~~~ =/

Everything had so called been smooth and great for me. Having my two darlings at my side all this while and a miracle someone whom had entered into my life, they are literally the ones who never fails to make my day meaningful.

Ever since that day, ques had been flying into my mind of how everything will be like. Had actually said out my thoughts to a couple of my friends, somehow....whatever they said or advised me is true. Know i shouldn't be so selfish. Though i know the hurt and fear in me that were created by my previous r/s had once given me a huge blow, and made me dare not step out of it, but i know i shouldn't be liddat.

Things had changed and is clearly proven that lots of things are different. Be it personalities or characteristics.

I know that if i dun try, i'll never know. And i know that i'm ready.

Like wad XingYing said: "there is a good bus that is waiting for u, but it will not stop there forever. And when it moves and another bus arrives, you will never know if this bus will be as good as the bus that is initially waiting for you."

Thus, even though i duno how this bus may be like...but unless i board it, if not i'll never know how it will be like.

And i'm just thinking.....issit the time for me to be fair to u le. To be fair to that someone who had literally been by my side for this one month. Although short, but.....meaningful. (:

Till then, i'll just end my post here le. Will update more when free.. ^^

Tadas!~~

2010-01-12T22:52:00.000+08:00

Just decided to update my blog after so long.

Had been busy in school ever since the first day of sch...Stacks and stacks of homeworks & also lots and lots of tests approaching... School eventually still ends late most of the days and most of us are starting to feel the pleasure and stress...

Definitely, most of us just wished that time will fly pass faster so everything will end in a blink of eyes. Also, we definitely want it to be end worthwhile! =)

Finally, gave myself a break yesterday and went shopping with my 2 dearests...Went to hunt of CNY clothes and in de end bought a very simple dress & a "cool" jacket which was similar with Grace's. =D

(Dont know why this year's CNY, just felt like wearing something simple yet nice...Hmm~)

However, when shopped till half way, J texted me and said his nose bleed again.. Scare me like hell >.< But thank god nothing serious..

Okay!,den left orchard and den HSH!~~ ^^

Today....nothing much but just a normal sch day.. Just that stomach kept hurting on and off after recess.... Duno why....hmmm~

Went CCA after that and reached home at 7pm... Bath~Ate dinner, Grace came over den do our Lit report analysis... Finally completed and emailed to cher liao.. ^^ Yeah!!...

Currently, using lappy den guess sleeping soon le ba...hmmm~... Tmr got PE till 4!! Arghh...

Okay ba...till here for today den! =D

My STRESS sch schedule for next week:

5 tests~!!!!

2 days of CCA,

2 days of extra lessons... Hmmm~ =(

Never forget this year's resolution:

Study hard for Olevels and aim for 15points and below!!
Forgetting almost everything of "someone" and as i promise, being fair to my next...
Must have as much fun as i could with my girls! (G.J.C)
Spend more time with my family and relatives!
Living this year2010 to the best of my ability.
Not to spend 25Dec and 31Dec this year with only my darling girls but hopefully with someone special~

2010-01-07T22:27:00.000+08:00

Heylo!... Had been a long long time ever since i updated my blog le.. =)

Sch had started and i seriously dun like de life of sec5.. =.=

Hmm..is still ok ba.. only that there is tons and tons of unfinish hwk to do and there will be 3 tests next week!..Arghhhh~~

However, sch will definitely be great with all my darling girls around... Esp the 2 sotong and pussy cat!.. Haha! =p

Went Republic Poly today for visiting... Can say is ok ba.. hmmm..

went home to change and eat den meet Grace to accompany her to ws to buy her book at popular... Went to slack around and talk talk lo...

Supposingly meeting him but didnt cos he went to Kenny's place to play with kids.. LOL!...

Duno when will den be meeting him so see how ba..Hehe!...

Will be going back to cca tmr.. Haiz~ and it finishes at 5.30pm..

Will be meeting Miao and co to Chinatown to celebrate ZhiYuan's b'dae...

Sat working mid shift till 8pm.. not sure wad will be the plans after that.. still thinking..

Hmm~... school really very sian and i'm getting back my Olevel MT results next monday le..! Wish me luck! =p

Okay le.. just update till here ba.. Will update more when possible.

Tadas~

2010-01-02T00:32:00.002+08:00

Hi! Decided to post a very long post to sum up the year 2009!

"When you lose someone, you feel sad b'cos once they belong to you. Now that it's gone, I'd learn to stand up again & walk strongly."

There was once i had a beautiful memory from you- CGJ! These 2 and a half years of relationship will be kept inside my heart forever. I thanked you for all the laughter u shared with me and the tears u shed with me. At first, i thought is hard to leave without you. However, i'd already stepped out of the fear and is glad that i'd once fully belonged to you.

Till then, i'll wished you all the best and all the best, my friend! =)

G.J.C

Darlings, how could i ever forget both of you! ^^

Grace:

Sweetie, knowing you for almost 6 years le. There was times of fun and times of anger... However, i duno if it's fate or wad that brought us back together.

Thanks for everything and for all that u'd done for me when i was in my hard times. ILOVEYOU girl! =D

Camille:

Babe, knowing you for almost 5 years, but is just like i had known you as long as i'd knew Grace. Quarrels at times and had fun most of the time. Separated 2 years ago but back together 2 years later. I sincerely thanked you for everything you had done during the period of hard times few months back. Is appreciated! LOVING YOU LOTS DEAR! =D

Although we wont know how might future may be, but i just hope that we will remain like how we are now. Remember we once said that we want all of us to be each other sister on our wedding day? ^^ And even said that Grace wants to be the last to get marry? Haha!..

Next year is a critical year for all of us.. Let's work hard together and get good results for our Olevel so that we can go poly together ok? Not leaving any of us behind!

WE GO GIRLS! LOVES~~

Shirleen:

Although some times very "qian bian", but iloveyou! My friend! =) Knowing you for going 5 years le, just hope we will keep in contact forever. Be it how will our future be. I really thanked you for all your advice in life, be it friendship or love. Although sometimes really very naggy la.. HAHA! But i really appreciate it alot alot... =D

Let's work hard together for our Olevel in this new upcoming year 2010 kays!.. Loves~

Vivitha & Priya:

Hey girls! Although always ps us when we asked u out, but both of you are never to be forgetten! I thanked you for every jokes and craps you all made to make me laugh when i'm down. Love you Babes!.. =D

"Must catch up more when school terms starts!.." Will see you girls next monday in school ba!.. ^^

"Once a leader, Always a leader!"

We pledge, we sore, and we grow! Esp my excutive committee 2008: (Daniel, Charmian, Bryan & Hetty)!

At times, all 5 of us may be busy that we do not have time for meeting. At times we may be unhappy about certain stuffs that we will get piss for each other. We will be stress at times, be serious and also have lots of jokes and craps. I'll never forget all the hard work and effort we gave out and all the scoldings we got!

You all are the once who let me grew up and sore high. Also to all my seniors, i'll never never forget how much u all did!

"ONCE A COUNCILLOR, ALWAYS A COUNCILLOR!" Let this phrase goes on till the end... ^^

Miao:

Though not close, though only know you for a year plus, but i'd always looked up to you as a sister.

Really cherish and appreciate everything you did when i'm in pain and sorrow. Though i know some words, u didnt want to tell me, but i'm happy that u're there and then be there for me, encouraging me. I really duno how much i can thank you with but to cherish u as a friend and love you as a sister.

Loveyou! =)

Zhiyuan,

Shun Lai,

Jane:

Comes to u people, I've no other words but really cherish all of u as my friends! All the best for everything and all of you are loved! =)

Sofia & Xingying:

Yoz! GRs rocks right? HAHA!...

Remember the first day i came in, i was scared and enviroment was cold... However, it was both of you that made my time at Ek warm with laughter and allow me not to feel strange! =)

At times, all of us are serious and at times are crazy. Seeing all the strange, weird stuffs that you all always did to make people laughed really makes my day bright and allow me to forget all the pain and unhappy stuffs.

Though only know both of u for less than half a year, but i believe there is more for me to learn from you all..

Although i'm starting sch soon and will only work on weekends or may not even work when it comes to exams, but i'll still pop in when i'm free.

There is no amount of thanks i can say to both of u all but to continue to work hard.

I'll miss both of u all when i'm away and I Love both of you! =D

XinYi (Hubby):

Ok well! "Married" on the 17 of dec! Haha! also duno why suddenly became your wife sia..HAHA! So when will we divorce? Hehe!.. Kidding..

However, i thanked you dear!..Thank you to be my always listening ears and for all your advice. Jiayou for year 2010 kays!..

ILOVEYOU! ^^

Ah Boon:

Boon ar! Put your Bao Yu aside first k? Haha!

Thank you for everything! For you advice or for ur craps. No other words to say to you but a very big thank you and to cherish u as a friend, a colleague.

All the best in everything you do in the year 2010 k? Going NS le wor!.. HAHA! =D

Hisham:

Shocked to see you name appear here? HAHA! Just want to say that is really a bless to meet you as a friend =) Somemore or somewhat i duno why, i can just trust u alot.. Haha! Thanks for everything that u'd advised me on and kept encouraging me. =) You GO man!! ^^

Ika,

Maeve,

Xylia,

Jasmine,

Lincoln,

Nishan,

Walton.

"Hey girls, we rockz right? Haha! Definitely!..Ika, my best babe yea! All the best in everything u do in 2010 and lovely dovely with you *ahem* ok? ^^ Maeve, our healthy princess, Goodie Luckies for your Olevel results! I believe you can do well and sore up high to any level of education. =) Xylia, although dun really know you but All the best! (: JASSSMMMIINNEE!! Stay cool and cheerful okok? All the best in 2010 and let's continue to rock on babe! LOVE YOU GIRLS!!"

"Okay Guys, irritating at times so in the year 2010, dun be so irritating le ok!... Lincoln, all the best in this new upcoming year & Nishan, we are waiting for you to join back to this big family!... =D

Lastly, Walton...Good luck in whatever things you are doing in this new year.

Okay! After typing for so long, it's time to end here to sum up my year 2009 le! Just wish in the year 2010, everything will be better and smooth ba!...

Will post my resolution for the year 2010 maybe tmr ba..

For now, after taking my medication, TIME TO GO TO BED LE! Working Mid-shift tmr...

Tadas!

2009-12-27T00:20:00.000+08:00

Hi!...

Haven been updating my blog for days so i guess is time to update le...

Currently, "Tired~Sleepy~Sick~Lack of sleep~"....

So will just post a short post and will go off to sleep!...

Went out with my darling girls on Christmas eve. Went out with a group of 10 people. Met up at west plaza, den bused 81 to Kovan den to Bugis...

Guys went to play Lan while girls went to shop.. Changed to our second outfit (the pic showed on this post)! Haha! LOL...

Went over to bugis street after that... i went of early cos needa rush over to uncle's house at woodlands for Christmas also..

So de rest went for dinner den they went to movie without me lo.. Sorry girls!!...will mend u all back one day! ^^

Reached home at 2 plus that night!...

On Christmas day, went to work as usual...Work mid! As it was public hol, so the pay is $6.50 per hour...WooHoo~~ Haha! =D

Knocked off at 8pm and went to meet Miao...Was driving den went to Tamp. Met Eileen there den cousin serlee came after that.. Ate dinner den pei Miao go back home take jacket... Drove to Bedok to fetch Lai and Zy... Went over to lai's house. Suppose to go his house to eat a 3.5kg turkey..But Lai cheat our feelings~...In the end..didnt eat anything!.. =.=

Went to XinWang cafe to eat supper after that den went HSH!~....Reached home at 2.20am...

(Thanks miao for driving me home yesterday and picking me up after work..LOVED!)

Woke up at 8plus..hardly slept 5hours.. head was super pain back still had to drag myself out of bed and get to work...

Work was normal except one thing..dun say out la.. Knocked off at 5.30pm, so sweet of Khari to wait for me..Haha!...walked out together, met cousin and bro...Khari den walked to bus stop and the 3 of us den walked separated way to take MRT to bugis..Ate~Shop~ den home early cos was super duper TIRED!..

Will work morning tomorrow, den to Clark Quey to celebrate Miao's b'dae!.. =)

Gtg off!..Tadas!..

"hope u will wear the shirt i gave u tomorrow.. =) "

2009-12-22T22:43:00.000+08:00

Hi! Just got back home from work.. Didnt feel like going anywhere cos is super duper tired~...

Yesterday went town with Xinyi hubbbyyy*~ and Jane! =D... Went orchard and at least manage to buy the staffs we should..Haha! Didnt take photos cos was lazy and all 3 of us were tired.. ^^

Got up extra early today cos needa go post office to post something...Got up at 8.30am..bathed and ate "tang yuan" den off to WS... waited for bus 359 and was super long... was then worried that i will be late for work... Post office opened at 9.30am...went it to post the stuff and went to take bus 17 to work..No time to walk over cos will confirm be late... Reached there 10mins early..Lucky still manage to be on time...

Was quite "busy" in the morning...however till around noon....it wasn't busy at all le... cos can say the stuff that should be done had been completed in the morning le... =.=

Stoned around and tried to find things to do...Chat at ebuddy with Boon and Xinyi..Haha!... Xingying came and both of us talked crap and such...hee.. Secretly put her Christmas Present inside her bag when she went into ops room...

Suddenly she shouted when she came back and there she was shock to see a present from me inside her bag.. She still told me that she thought she opened a wrong bag.. HAHA! =p

Went for my break after that~...

Around 5plus, cousin kathy brought cousin melvin to come and play..Helped him to be member and purchase the ticket...Knocked off at 6pm but stayed on thill around 8plus just to be with them...

Went to Galarie to eat waffle den walked them to bus stop den HSH~...

Needa wake up at 6.30am tmr and go back to sch =.=

Is sec1 registration and needa go back help auntie...

Will be meeting Camille after that around 11plus den to work at 2pm... Working night shift...Hmmm....will only knock off at 10pm!! Arghhhhh~~.... TIRED~~

Okay! Guess will stop here then..

Tadas!..

Counting 2more days to Emily's sweet 16!....

Counting 10more days to 2010~~!!

2009-12-21T00:48:00.000+08:00

Hi! Just back home half an hour ago... Currently is 12.15am...

Went to meet miao and co for movie... "Bodyguards & Assassins"...

Well the movie is although a true story...but is boring lo~~.. Though some parts are funny...However overall i'll give a 3stars ba... ^^

Today: went to work as usual... Mummy and bro went M'sia with family & co... NOT FAIR! I also want to go lo..

But too bad ar.. i got work =(

Got to work at 12pm...was super busy once i started work... Assisted the 1pm party with Lincoln den the 3.30pm party with YongJie. Time files super fast lor.. Maybe b'cos is super busy ba...^^

Went for break like finally with Daniel...Called Lai while having break cos he asked me to call him about a task for me to do tmr... =.=

Miao called after that to ask if want watch movie at TM with Zy & Peter...

After work and walked to inter with Hafizah... Luckily manage to rush to cinema to meet them in time =)

Movie lasted for 2hours plus den went HSH after that cos all were tired~~...

Trained with Zy den bused 359 home!

Tmr meeting Xinyi & Jane to town to hunt for things...Haha!

Ok! gtg le..will post till here le..

Tadas~~

*when i was alone just now going home,
i suddenly feel empty...*
just duno why....but...hmmm~~
a feeling!...

2009-12-19T00:57:00.000+08:00

Hi lo~~

just reached home an hour ago..currently is 12.15am!...

Got my results today.. Well~~my result slip is uploaded =D

Woke up early and met clique for breakfast...Slack around and walked to sch...

I swear seeing all de teachers really made us stress!..Cos their faces is like......NO EXPRESSION!...

All of us were like thinking...."DIE LIAO"...

went up to hall and hear de talk from Mdm Kamisah..

Show us the result chart for NT den follow by us.. Was happy and shock when our English and Maths had 100% passes!...

And when we saw 95.4% got promoted up to sec 5, our hearts were at ease! Whew~...

Got my results and gave it a smile (: Jump with joy when i got 2distinctions and a total of 13points.

Is so unexpected cos during prep and prelim exams, most of us cant make it!...HAHA!

All of us left sch with joy and headed to WS after that.. Went home with grace, got bath and went out again..

Had dinner at Swensens to celebrate! haha!

almost done with my christmas gifts shopping except for a few...Hehe!

Grace & me Accompany mille to wait for her boy boy to finish work den took bused & HSH!~~ =D

Talking to Xinyi hubbbyyy & stupid Ah Boon now at Msn... Smsing Jane at the same time too...

Gtg watch my dvd le.. working mid tmr... With that AH BOON!! (suay la)..

No program after that ba..(i guess).. ^^

Tadas!...

To miao: duno when did this happen to u but i'm really worry about u...

U'd been standing by me when i was in de lowest state but i really feel bad that i cant do anything...

Know u're strong and glad that u said u're alright..

However, no matter wad happens, i'd to let u know that everyone, including me, will be standing by u..

And i promise we will give u the best plan we could on ur birthday celebration next week....

I'll want to see you smile!..

Love you sweet! (:

2009-12-16T22:59:00.001+08:00

Hi all...

Went straight home after work at 6 and came home to take a nap till 8plus.. Had a super duper tired day ever since yesterday!!....

(Talk from yesterday ba) =D

Went to work as usual but was the only GR...

Everything was normal untill night...Debbie walkie me to say that i had to do 101 balloons for today's fieldtrip.. Did it will Karan, and a little help from Faris cos he was doing check out..

Completed it in less than 2 hours time..HAHA!!

Went to staff party after work...Walked there together with Hafizah, Karan, Nasri, Wilson & Jasmine(membership)...

Reached and played games.. Flour was all over my body like ARGHHH!!...HAHA =D

Went to clean up awhile den walked out with Boon, Maeve & Xinyi to buy water...was around 1am at that time liao..HAHA!...

Met Daniel on the way back den walked together back to the chalet.. Everyone was still super crazy...

Dance~~Chit chat~~Laugh~~ Craps~~Took photos etc...Hahs! ^^

Went up to room after that...were together with Xinyi,Xylia,Ben & Wilson at first...Talked about ghost stories...Haha!!...

Boon came up to join after that den follow by Khairal(who once worked escape)....

Talked about lots of ghost stories in the dark...

Khairal went down to another room den the 6 of us squeeze one master bed and sleep..

I SWEAR THAT AH BOON WAS VERY IRRITATING LOR!!!......(kena hit by me and Xinyi for alot of times...) Haha!...

*Poor xinyi & me cant even turn or toss our body for that 2hours of sleep..*....

Woke up at 6plus..den went down to wash up..Xylia & Ben went off first.. Den xinyi, me, boon & wilson went to eat mac for breakfast before going home...A number were still sleeping when we left...^^

Breakfast den bused 21 with them den HSH~~...

Came back home, bath, wash up..rest awhile den headed back to dte again...This time..to WORK!...

Well Zul, me and Ben all kena morning shift..so.....all 3 of us are all half awake..half there and half not there..HAHA!!

Finally is 6 and can go home...Reached home and slept den woke up at almost 9pm to see 6messages in my inbox..HAHA!....

Replied, wash up, dinner den here i am..using com...

Tmr last min had to work night shift...cos xingying is sick! Hmm.TC babe!! =)

Fri also off and is result day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....

Okay! will stop here den...

Tadas~!

was quite upset that u didnt go for the party..

however, was happy to see u smiled during work ytd..

was so worry about u when i knew about that thing..

hmmm....

but seeing u smiling at me and talking to me as per normal,

really makes me feel ease...

I guess, i'll c u on weekends den! =)

2009-12-15T02:03:00.000+08:00

Hi!....

decided to post before i go to bed..

Woke up at 1pm today..^^ Haha!

Is like so long didnt sleep till so late liao..Hehe!

Got up and wash up.. Had my lunch den went to clean up my bedroom..

Didnt manage to clean up fully~ But manage to repack my study table and my wardrobe..

After packing my wardrobe, i den realise that i only left a few clothes..Haha!

(Need to find time to go shopping le)~ =)

Went to meet Grace at Mrt platform den trained to Eunos... Manage to buy my perfume like finally for $12~

Trained back to tamp after that..Did shopping and slack around.. Met Mille after that..

Had been a long time ever since 3 of us last met le.. Seriously had lots to catch up on.. ^^

Finally bought my staff party present for tomorrow..Whew~~

Bused back to Grace's place...Ate Macoroni Carbonara for dinner..

First time that i saw Grace cooked..Haha!! =D

Done with dinner den slack at her room for awhile...Initially wanted to watch movie but in the end, none of the timeslots suit us..

So bused to WS with them den HSH after that...

Now, time to go to bed le...

For tmr, working night shift =.=

Supposingly work morning shift but changed with Sofia cos she needa helped Manager to shopping for our staff party at night..

Will go over to chalet(staff party) after work with de night shift staffs..

My darlings Xinyi & Xylia will wait for me till 10pm den go together..

Will ton over there den next day will work morning shift!...

Hope everything will be good and fun tmr! ^^

3more days to Nlevel results!!!

9more days to Emily's sweet 16!!...

(finally manage to get off on the 24th dec o.o...B'cos of my darlings and our birthday girl on that day!)...

Didnt spend much time with my darlings and had been a long time ever since i meet up with Emily!....

Work are filling up with my schedule..One week only 1 or 2 days off..

Reason why i cant pei my girls! Hmmm^^

Hope they wont think i'm making use of them..

Cos all are precious to me:: "Mille, Grace, Emily, Shirleen, Vivi & Priya"....

Was happy that manage to meet miao and co yesterday!..

So other den work, for spending time with my lovely friends, i dun mind taking out some time for u all!

MUST MEET UP MORE O.O.... ESP MY SWEET 16 GROUP OF GIRLS!!! LOVES~~

will stop here den..

Beddie time!..

Nights~!

Tadas~~!

2009-12-14T01:14:00.000+08:00

Hi!..Got back home 45mins ago..Currently is 1am.. =)

Feeling rather sleepy..However, talking to Boon now...Keep asking for is abalone! =.= Noise fellow!!

But den ok la..tomorrow finally is my off day le! Haha!..so can sleep as long as i want... Hehe! =p

Got up around 10plus today...Bath and got ready to go to work... Work was alright la...except for a couple of irritating incidents...

Was Anun's last day today! =(

But was happy that she got a better job la... ^^

Finished work and went to slack with Ika...

Chat around and she went to smoke...

Saw Zul while on the way to bus stop...chat awhile den went to bus stop..

Took 21 with her den i alighted at tamp.

Went to meet Jane den headed to meet Miao & co. Waited for Lai den went 201 de mac to slack...

Kim went off first den i took bus 17 den HSH after that! =)

(Simple meeting lo...) Hehe!

Okay! Will stop here then...

Update more if possible!

Tadas~!

day by day,
i really duno wad should i do...
just let go off my ex and
there comes another one...
somehow i just dun want to do anything.....
i'll just wait and see how my feeling will be like...
Love is seriously complicated~~

2009-12-13T00:11:00.000+08:00

Hi!...Gotten back home around 45mins ago... Currently is 11.30pm! =)

Had a super tired day today!

Got up around 8plus to prepare for work. Was feeling rather sleepy and had slight headache..But still....had to go work..Haha!

Was abit blurr at the beginning when started to work.. But after a few mins wad ok le.. However, had a super duper hectic morning!

Seriously cant tahan and almost go bad due to something..But ok la... Was alright after awhile! Hahs!

Saw him and everything was so diff...just duno why i just cant face him in a frustrated face...Although i was somehow affected by something later in de day...

Assited YongJie during his party cos nothing much to do..Hehe! And sofia asked me to do it..

Knock off at 6pm instead of 5.30pm..He did check out for his afternoon shift...

And i can only say, NO FATE!

Finished work and took 89 to Hougang...Went to my cousin's grandma's house cos it was my cousin's 26th Birthday! Haha!

Slack around and had dinner etc...

Went home early as got work tmr! >.<

Currently, back home! chatting on XinYi and Ah Boon on msn! haha!...

Okay! Think gotten stop here le..Will update soon! I promise! =)

Working mid tmr so time to say nite nite!

Hope tmr will be good~~ =D

Tadas~!! ^^

things wasnt much good..
but when u're around during work,
i felt secure & comfortable....
even if u're just a few centimetre behind me,
i can still feel u're there...
feel safe... =)

2009-12-10T23:15:00.000+08:00

Hi, got home like 15mins ago...currently is 11.05pm...

Was super tired after the whole day at work..didnt feel like carry on slacking so went to inter to take bus...

Work was great, as usual....but only till night time den i stone there...luckily messages kept coming in so didnt feel really bored... =) Xinyi & Xylia also came to find me for awhile so was still ok la..

Finished work and walked to inter with Hafizah and Khari.

Saw him and his working friends when walking pass alfesco. Told hafizah about it and den that 2 idiots still stand there and shout "Where? Where?".....LOL =.=

Was walking behind us all along..Didnt really bother much though hands felt cold....But that 2 funny idiots really made me felt very ease...Haha!... =D

But well, i'm ok! Haha!!~

Saw GuoXin and wave hi to him.....Went separate ways with cliques after that...Saw Grace while waiting for bus....

"Yeah got accompany to pei me take the same bus"!! Haha~

Bused den went HSH after that...

Okay, will stop till here..

Tada~!...

saw u wearing the "banana" shirt
and was kinda miss that shirt that i bought....
Glad that u still wore it....
Wonder why she always walked so fast when she saw me...
u should know which "she" i'm talking about...

decided not to let u know first after asking advice from the guys..
maybe i should wait and see ba...
although i admit i'd fallen for u but will just see how things go lo...
glad that u texted me today and did reply me =)
shock when u said u wanted to join GR..
issit true? Haha!
Will cya on sat ok? ^^

2009-12-09T23:55:00.000+08:00

Hi!

Just got back home from work an hour ago...

Super tired...and is troubled about something now..hmmm..

Woke up around 12 cos kena woke up by Wilson's message =.=

Bathed and went to meet Camille for lunch...Decided to eat Superdog after much considering...

Was late for work for 5mins....hehex..

Work was fun after all...Saw Sofia testing Maeve and remember how i was tested by them on the first few days of work...

Haha =D

Was alone after 7 at GR counter cos i work night ma...Hahs! Wilson came and to buy for me dinner...So sweet of him..Haha!

Went to eat den continue with work...

Finished work den walked to bus stop with Nurul..Had lots of jokes and craps along the way...

Bused den HSH!~ =)

Now home, and chatting online...something troubling me..hmmm

But will go and think it through for a day den decide wad to do ba..

Anyway, guess will stop here le..

got to meet mille at 11 at tamp tmr...den headed to work at 2 after that..tmr till 10pm again! =.=

Nitex! Tada~!

should i let u know
or
should i never let u know...
hmmm...

2009-12-08T00:42:00.000+08:00

Hey hey! Just got back home an hour ago...Currently is 12.30am now..Hee!

& Having i super duper serious flu... :(

Was off today so woke up abit later as usual..Got prepared and went out to meet Jane (lai's gf)...

Met and train and headed to bugis...Had lunch at Ajisen and went over to bugis street... Did medi & pedi...haha!

Talked joked and had lots of fun...

Went to iluma to play photofun and den walked to the cathay to catch a movie- Case 39 at 7.25pm..

The show was not bad la.. Was a little boring at the beginning but scary after that le...Both of us got shock quite a number of times..Haha! But overall was not bad la..Not that scary as we'd expected it to be...Though was a little lame in the end.. (4 stars)**** ba.. =P

Went to slack around and ate Ben & Jerry..Walked, slacked and headed back~...

Saw Yong Jie when i got off the train...

Talked & Bused with him den HSH~~...

Tmr, working le...From 10-6pm....

After that will meet my dearest Grace & Camille awhile den will go home for dinner..

Missed mummy's cooking le.. ^^ Hee~~

Will gotten work for the rest of the days this week le... Need to cover for XingYing for both thur and fri cos she needa go course...So ya..!!

Haha..Gtg now.

Tada~!

p.s. counting 10 more days to Nlevel results!!

2009-12-06T23:37:00.000+08:00

From now on, i'll stop counting down the days without you le....Cos, is time for us to move on and let go le.. =)

Hi!... back from work half an hour ago..and now..is 11.30pm~~

Times files pass and tmr is Monday liao~...

Today, woke up slightly early to go to central to make another GRO's room key for myself for work...Headed to work after that... Was quiet as there is no party but quite crowded around 2plus as today is still de family thingy..Hee...

Kena teased from Hafizah for "something"....hmm...den notice that wad she said is true.. "HE didnt smile today"...

Didnt really talk to him at first so went to do my stuffs...Ran to main office through and flow like duno how many times...=.=

Pop into Gro's room to get a drink den realise he was inside... just randomly asked him why is he sian sian den he gave me a stupid ans =.=

Didnt talk much as was busy...

Had my break den supposingly worked till 8pm..But stayed back cos need to twist balloons for tmr's fieldtrip...

Iryana den pulled me to play Adventure highlands with her... Almost make my heart pop out..And den stupid me den realise that she was pulling me to see................hmmm...

Ok la..but is fun trying to play..Haha!

Decided to go off at 10pm cos accompany Xingying..Haha.. Had lots of craps and jokes....

Walked with XingYing to inter after that den walked HSH~~ =D

For tmr, will be off from work....so meeting Jane (lai's girl) to town to shop..Haha!

Okay, will post till here then..

Tada~!

p.s. was happy to see u at least smile before i knock off... ^^

*At first i thought it was fake, but it turns out real...Hmmm..~~

2009-12-05T00:02:00.000+08:00

85th days without "xxx"...

Hi! Just came home from work half an hour ago.. Currently, is 11.45pm! ^^

As usual, woke up, ate lunch den went to work... Uncle came to fetch me to work cos it was raining cats and dogs...

Was real busy in the beginning.. but everything went chill around 8plus...Ahaha...

Didnt had much to do, so talked to Ayu as she was doing check out...

Suddenly, an unexpected person came to find me..

Seriously i swear that i didnt think of it at all.. Wasn't too happy, nor wasn't too sad either...just normal lo..like a friend...

However, hands became real cold after that...duno why but ya...hmmm~~

But overall, was happy to see him =D

After work, went to rooftop wid cliques cos they wanted to smoke...But again, i didnt! Hee~~

Went to slack at void deck near HaiSing after that...a total of 5, 2girl and 3guys..And i'm de only chinese...cos de only chinese left working night ma.. =(

Den...while we were slacking, a super funny thing happened...

"A uncle was standing around 5m away from us... den while we were chatting, a very loud farting sound was then being heard...and was from that uncle...My stupid cliques den laugh ar...esp the guys ar... LOL"...

Continue slacking than de 3stupid guys like take turns to test me la..keep passing me their cig..=.=

But, no interest~ Haha!!

Walked home with Rahman after that den HSH~~

Working mid(12-8) tmr with Walton and some others ba...or maybe both of us only...Hee..Duno ar.

Will finish work at 8 den going to family bbq at hougang...

OMG!! Tmr is Family Day ar....Die~~...

Okay signing off le...gotton talk on the phone now...

Tada~!

was surprise to see u,
didnt even think that u'll actually appear in front of me..
but honestly,
no other special feelings when i see u but only miss & love ba...
Though hands became super cold then,
but didnt feel nth special..
I'm really happy to see you...
~misses`~...
~!~

2009-12-03T22:56:00.001+08:00

84th days without "xxx"...

Hi! just got back home...Body is aching like siao esp my left shoulder..duno why, it just had been aching for the pass couple of days...

Right now, is 10.40pm le...

Woke up as per normal today and went to work...Rot in front of my com for the whole day cos there is nothing for me to do...Done with everything and such le... Crowd was super quiet for the first few hours..Only untill 1plus den the crowd started coming in... =.= Pathetic~~

Finish work at 6 and my darling Grace waited for me outside EK... Went for dinner and to cinema to watch New Moon!! Bro joined as...supposingly cousin too..but she was stuck at her doctor appointment..So didnt manage to catch the show...

The show lasted for 2hours plus.. It was super nice lo!! Ahaha~

Walked home den HSH ^^

Tomorrow working closing..From 2pm to 10pm ar... *-*

And OMG! I hope weekends wont come cos it's gotten to Family Day on weekends...Argh!!!

Got family bbq on Sat after work...and Sun....hmmm...maybe meeting Miao ba..DunoDuno..Hee =P

Ok! Gtg le..continue to watch my show and to pei my cousin cos she is at my house now!! Haha! =D

Tada~!

This part...for my one and only perfect YOU:

i'd decided to start afresh le...

Starting a new life, new race w/o you...

Really letting u go for now le...

but our memories will always be stored....in my HEART!

for now, starting our separate lifes le, our separate road..

Sorry that i cant guide you in which path to go le...

Maybe for now ba....maybe we are just fated to be like how we are now ba...

In the future...no one will be able to predict.
Like wad i said,
if we are really meant to be tgt,
we'll be no matter how many circles we revolve around..

But, i sincerely wish u all the best for now,

and remember that

I'M STILL HERE FOR U NO MATTER WAD!

Also, remember that the amount of importance and love to u,

be it as a friend or as a gf,

will NEVER NEVER gotten change!...

~Loves =) ~

2009-12-02T01:09:00.000+08:00

83rd days without "xxx"...

Hi! Just reached home half an hour ago... is 12.55am now...hahs!

Had a pleasant and fruitful day today!...

Got up early in the morning and went back to sch to help auntie in bookshop... Reached home around 2plus den rest awhile and ate Mac for lunch cos bro ordered Mac...

Den around 4 plus, went out again cos is Ah Lai's Birthday...Haha! Turn 20 liao!! ^^

Suppose to train down to bugis to meet Zy, lai and his gf first...but end up he was faster then me... Shock when he called me..LOL.

Met him and Zy at BHG cos went to look for Lai's present...

End up eyed on something but had to wait for miao to come...

Met up with Lai & his gal den went to walk around... Peter came to join when we were at Iluma...

Den went to arcade after that...Around 9, our Miao finally reached le.. Slack around at arcade den went to buy Lai's present and his cake...

Went to LAI LAI for dinner after deciding for a period of time..Kim(miao's bf) came after that....

Took pics and crap around! (Pics on fb) =D

Left LAI LAI at 11plus den trained back home... Kim and him went another way while de rest of us went another way...

Bused den HSH~!...

Guess sleeping soon le...tmr had to wake up early again to go back sch den meet my darling girl! =)

Nitex nitex!

Tada~!

p.s. Next up: Miao's birthday!!... =p

was glad that we could still joke around like before...

miao was happy for as though =)

now i finally realise that it could be better if we start from friends again....

and to see how everything will goes...

like wad miao said,

we cant predict wad will happen...

but to believe in ourselves..

B'cos i'm confident that

we wont lose contact no matter wad happens...

although all day long u're texting a "she"...

but, i trust ur words still..

1more day to the 3rd le..

i hope u remember our deal still...

2009-11-30T22:55:00.000+08:00

81st days without "xxx"...

Hi! Just reached home not long ago =) Currently is 10.30pm & is chatting with Xinyi! =D

So sweet of her...kept asking me if am i well from sickness already not...Hahs!

[Dun worry yea! I'm ok le..And promise you that i'll be extremely well before the 15 of Dec! ^^]

Went to meet my 2girls today and caught Christmas Carol for movie! =D

Okay la...not as nice as we'd expected but had some shocking scenes and funny ones too.. *(3.5 stars)*

Camille went to work after that den both Grace and me walked all de way to Tampines... Hahs..is fun actually..talked and chit-chat made our trip shorter den we expected...Hahs!

Walked around and saw a shop that is selling all dresses for $10 only! Haha... Went in and both saw our ideal dress..Bought it! & decided to wear it for Christmas! =D

Trained to bedok cos decided to go Bedok 85 for dinner..

Had a very nice dinner although will think of him...walked around after that den decided to walk back from bedok...So walked back till Simei den trained back to pasir ris den walked back home...

Den...HSH! =D

For tmr: going back sch to help auntie in de morning..She texted me suddenly ytd...

Den still haven decide if i should go JB with Grace and her mum or go celebrate Shun Lai's b'dae tmr..Hmmm...

Think will see how tmr ba...but most likely is choice B ba... ^^

Okay!...think will post till here le.

Tada~!

2009-11-29T23:09:00.000+08:00

80th days without "xxx"...

Hi! Back from work about an hour ago...

Had a very tired day today.. Maybe is b'cos i'm not feeling well ba..

Got up in the morning as usual and went to work...Happy to see PeiShi on the way up to Ek...chat awhile den went separate ways to work..

Was shock to see Walton working as he told me he wasn't...

Went to did usual stuff but my irritating nose and throat were that freaking me out at that point in time...

Den whole body like aching den suddenly felt very cold...Pulled my jacket out to wear den XingYing went to help me buy panadol.. (So sweet of her =) )

Ate abit of food den took 2pills.. Felt sleepy suddenly den went in to GRO office to take a rest..

Party COs came in after that so was abit waken up... Though felt much better but still quite drowsy at that time...

So nice of XinYi and Xylia for asking if i'm ok...esp XinYi... Thanks sweetie! =)

Went over to entrance to take my temp and had a slight fever...

Thinking if want to report sick but had no idea at that point in time... went back to GRO office went no one was inside and took a rest for a few mins. Walton came in, asked me to report sick, so did XingYing and Jasmine...but didnt in the end...Cos was feeling slightly better... ^^

Got up and carry on with work..

Finished work and walked home...

was suppose to meet miao but end up she got something on...

Also,didnt join cliques cos not feeling well ar...

Okay, gtg den..
Tada~!

*wad will u do if u were to feel down and felt like having a hug to cry after a day of shit but no one was there??*

Choose to walk home after work,

b'cos i needa be alone.

Felt down & lonely suddenly...

Roamed around the neighbourhood for almost an hour...

hoping that someone, or hopefully YOU

could appear in front of me and hug me tight,

to let me burst out and cry out...

but there is no one to turn to at that time..

Felt lonely, felt scared...

(friends are all working and is understandable)..

At that moment,

i just still hope that my life still have YOU to be by my side...

2009-11-27T23:39:00.000+08:00

Hey, just came back from work...finish bathing and here i am, updating my blog =)

It 11.30pm now... ^^

Normal procedure, went to work...had lots of fun today! Haha! Did my first ever party on my own with no one with me.... Not suppose to do cos it's party co's work.. However cos there is shortage of party co, so i'd to sub in lo... Who ask GROs and party co are combined de =.=

Party was great! However, wouldn't be greater w/o xingying's help and also with Lincoln & Jasmine's guidence... Thanks peeps! Haha =D

Had break tgt with Jasmine..Packet up to eat... ate half way den went off to do our stuffs... Jasmine said dun want to carry on eating so i went back to finish eating my food tgt with Walton... Again! only both of us inside the Gro ops room.. =.=

Craps while eating den was surprise when Walton told me something..Hahs!

Got back to work den finished work at 10!!....Fool and play around awhile den when to slack outside ehub with them.

Both Shahida & me walked one of my collegue to bus stop den went HSH!...

[Saw HIM on the way to inter]

Working morning tmr with Walton as he is doing cashier...(i guess).. Ok la! At least got ppl to talk to.. Better den stoning alone in front of com..Haha!

Will finish work at 5.30pm...maybe staying back till a later timing or go and find Grace.. Depends ba! Hee...

Okay! Gtg le.. Update more if possible..

Tada~!

today,
i finally realise wad is my biggest regret.
"If only i'd accept u to be a "s.....",
maybe things will be different today le..
At least if i could accept it,
we both still can stay happy tgt still
and happily say ILOVEYOU to each other..
But now, all i can do is to only say
ILOVEYOU
silently inside my heart........ :'(

2009-11-27T00:10:00.001+08:00

78th days without "xxx"...

Hi! Just got back home an hour ago and currently is 12 midnight le!

Just got back home from work and is real real tired~~~

Got up in the morning today and had breakfast with bro.. Met emily around noon and trained to Bugis to shop awhile...

Around 3pm, trained back to Pasir Ris and headed to work with the company of Emily~ ^^

Almost fainted today because of my bad bad stomach cramps!! However it's better now.. =)

At work today....is de same old thing...But den is fun although is boring at times...

Cover night shift ALONE at GR till 10pm as Huda finished her work at 8....

And....is her last day of work today!! =(

"I'll miss u girl"!!

However, is happy for her as she got a full time job at Mediacorp... =)

After work, when to slack with cliques for awhile... Was the only chinese left during the night shift.. =.=

But however, ok la...click well with my cliques! Haha!!..

Stupid Asri asked me if i want cig not...=.=

Always like to bully me only....and definitely..i said NO to him la..HAHA =P

All smoked except for Hafizah and Me...!!! (2 guai ones) Haha! jkjk!...

Chit-chat around and den walked with Ika to inter den HSH!...

Ika told me a sercet o.o!... [Dun worry..it'll be safe with me.. ;)]

Wash up when reached home and drank some soup that mummy kept for me.. =) Sweet sweet~~ Hee!

Phoned with Ika for awhile den now posting my blog...

Gtg watch my dvd den to sleep le ba...

Tmr working from 2pm-10pm...(Covering night shift again~)

However, tmr most of them will be chinese crews cos is

HARI RAYA HAJI tmr!

Okay! Gtg den.. Update more when free..

Tada~!

already a week officially w/o u...
Yes, is somehow easy to let go but hard to forget..
But for me, it is like de same....HARD!...
Ever since i chat with u ytd,
i understand somehow..
Like wad u said,
just wait and see~~....

2009-11-25T00:16:00.001+08:00

76th days without "xxx"...

Hi! Is midnight now and is a starting of a new day...

Came back home around an hour ago~ =p

Met Grace around noon today and ahead to Vivo.. Had lunch den roam around to find "something"...

*A secret..only can be revealed next mth..* Hahas!

Around 4plus, went to bugis to meet up with Vania jie and Jayz jie... Cos needa help Vania jie to look for heels for her company...

Went to slack around after that~ Den both Grace and me trained back to pasir ris to look for Camiile & her bf...

Ate dinner at superdog instead of Fisherman V.

Slack around den went over to dte to check something however was closed =.=

Walked to bus-stop den HSH~

*Took lots of photos o.o... All uploaded on fb* =p

Tmr:

Will meet Emily to snip avenue to "touch up" our hair...

Den will be popping over to sch cos got Councillor camp.. Going over for awhile maybe till night ba..Hahs!

"Will be working from thur to sun!...Managed to change shift with Xingying on sat cos cousin melvin's b'dae...so got gathering.. =D

Thankie XY...Loveyou! ^^ ..."

Okay! Will stop here den..

Tada~!

2009-11-24T00:58:00.001+08:00

75th days without "xxx"...

currently, it's 12.50am... Gtg sleep soon le...

Met up with grace and emily for awhile cos got nth to do... so came out and slack. Went to had our lunch at a cafe at ehub...(forget wad's the name.. =P)

Went to slack awhile den walked to WS... Went to tamp with Emily while Grace go for work. Got a pair of new jeans for work =) Den a new tank top from Mango.

Took bus den went HSH!

Had dinner, watched tv and such.

Just finished conference on phone with Grace, Camille & her bf...Had an hour plus of conferencing...Hee!

Now posting blog den will continue watching my last epd of dvd. Den will go to bed le..

Tmr going Vivo with Grace to search for "something"...Will meet her around noon...

Den gtg meet Camille and probably her bf for dinner and slack.. Hehex!...

Okay! Gtg le...

Will update more when free..

Tada~!

when on the train back home with emily today,
was looking out of the window
and suddenly thought of how u pamper me last time,
how sweet u were
and
how easily u'll make me laugh with just using simple actions...
i really miss those days...
miss those days of
how i could just easily ran to your hug when i'm down,
how i could "sa jiao" with u
& how easily i could become a little girl in front of u...
Also, by feeling how safe i'm in your hands...
I knew i must move on....
but i really hope fate will really bring us back,
to the happiness we used to create...

2009-11-22T00:56:00.000+08:00

73rd days without "xxx"...

Currently, 12.40am.. Rather tired and sleepy le.. Guess will sleep soon ba =)

Woke up at 12pm today.. Had a straight night till morning.. Maybe really very tired ba ^^

Had lunch after washing up den bath.. Went out immediately cos scared will miss my bus..Den finally board my bus but who knows, blurr ma forgotten to bring my ezlink card, atm card & money!!! DIE~~

Den quickly called Emily for help...asked if she can lend me first. Thank god she was also coming down to ehub...so lend me $10.. (Thanks babe! Will return u back asap when i meet u)

[Was thinking of asking u for help..but back out in the end...]

Worked was as per normal... But only to assist Lincoln for party again~cos he got like alot of kids...

Den smth funny happened..

**Got a boy, he was super "naughty".. when going to play outside at the play area..He didnt want to sit down with the group..so he ran all over the place and i had to chase him like siao! =.=

He really ran damm fast although he was only like 2+....Haiyo!!~~~

Den that lincoln still can stand there laughing! =.= hmmm..**

Ok! nvm la.. kids ma..but really very tiring chasing him...hahs!

Working at 12-8pm tmr... (Haha! finish work same time as u..so dun suan me like ytd hor!)

Den most likely will meet miao & co. ba... =D

Okay! needa go watch my dvd for awhile den gtg sleep le..

*hope u never forget wad u told me wad u'll do later ar..*

though we officially broke up le.
but still maintain as best friends for now.
though we didnt want to...
but it just happened so unexpectedly.
Somehow i was thinking if everything could be turn back,
but like wad u said,
it depends on our fate,
as we cannot predict anything....
but i hope we will maintain like how we are now....
and to wait and see where our fate will bring us to!
*always rmb our deal~~*

2009-11-21T01:55:00.001+08:00

72nd days without "xxx"...

Hey! I'm back from Prom like 2hours ago and now is 1.45am!...

Was sleepy....honest speaking...But had really lots of fun.. Just uploaded ALL the pics taken up to fb...

Woke up 8plus and got myself ready to meet Grace & Emily and headed to Camille's house.. Waited for Shirleen to come and got ready to go over to Salon to make our hair!..

Done with my hair and they said i looked like small girl! =.= (pics on fb)

Went back to camille's place at around 12plus and ordered mac for lunch.. Slack and such..rest awhile b4 the night..

Den around 3plus, all gotten up to start putting on make-ups.. After that, walked to sch at around 5...

Was awesome..although was in school la..

Ate, took photos, have fun and went out of school... Cousin & bro waited for me outside school.. Thought of going to catch a movie but in the end decided to slack at Coffee Express instead. Den walked HSH with Emily....

Tmr: Needa work at 2pm-10pm.. =.= Tired! But nvm la..is fun anyway..Hee!...

Gtg off now.. Cousin at home to acc me tonight!...

Tada~!

days w/o you is wierd..
but had to accept it eventually..
Is still glad to maintain as good friends
and contact like how we used to be...
Maybe like u said "we are just fated to be friends for now ba"...
In the future... just depends on how fate will bring us to ba...
=)

2009-11-20T00:19:00.001+08:00

71st days without "xxx"...

Seriously, i duno how much longer am i going to continue counting the days without you...

For today's post, most of it will emphasise on us, on YOU....

Today,the 19 of nov, we officially put an end to our story... Our 2years & 6months storyline.

Honestly speaking, i'd already decided to let u go yesterday le...after i spoken to "her"....(wont mention who)

However, when u sent me the msgs today, honestly, i didnt shed a single drop of tears.

Like what miao said, maybe i'm already prepared for wad the outcome it will be le...

People may thing i'm strong, or i may be acting like as if nothing had happen... But seriously, i just dun wish any of u to worry about me..

If only i could, i seriously hope to be vanish from this earth for a day...

"She" told me u still care alot for me..Said that u called her just to ask about me... When i heard it, i'd no comments,no replies.. Cos i was thinking.."so wad if i knew that you still care...the outcome will still be the same...never ever gotten to change...for now...."

Moreover, i'm still glad that u still care...

For now, whatever i can do is to only move on and look forward...

At least we are still friends now and may be a best of the best...Cos moreover, we still understands each other more...

I will not get mad at u nor will i hate u...i only will say that i'll still cherish u, care for u and worry abt you...

Also maybe is time for me to start afresh le..

B'cos those things that will end will definitely end de... No one can stop even though how much we dun wish too...

At least, let's not be upset that we had lose each other...but to be happy that we used to have each other by our side...

Furthermore, i hope you will still tell me things that is hard on u...dun restrict yourself to call me if u really need someone to talk to. The most, i'm still the only one who understands u more apart from your family members...

Last but not least.. ~Iloveyou~...

Lastly, i thanks my dear grace to pei me for a whole day today... even after we each went home, she called to talk to me =)

2009-11-19T01:29:00.000+08:00

70th days without "xxx"...

Today is the day and now is 1.15am.. Just came back home around 1hour ago...
Watched 2012 and was ok la =D 2hours plas show..Hahs!...

Talking about yesterday, was great! Did my medi & pedi for my prom together with Camille & Grace! Was nice... hehe...
For today...
Met cousin kathy and bro to courts.. was pouring the whole day.. went to tamp1 for lunch and headed to ehub...
Caught a 9pm movie... Walked home after that.. den HSH!...

Decided on an answer today...is just after i talked to "someone" on the phone and knew wad had happened to your family... Duno if it's the cause but for as far as i know, i'll respect whatever decision u will make and for most, we are still best friends who truely understands each other...
For such, who knows one day fate will bring us back again...
~Iloveyou~...

2009-11-16T23:46:00.002+08:00

67th days without "xxx"....

Hi! Is 11.30pm now...just got back home like half an hour ago.. =p

[Somehow, i am thinking that how long must i still carry on counting the days w/o you... I really hope to have u back...(I just dun want anything le...But YOU!)]

Anyway, went out with my girls again after so long...Supposingly going in a big group..But end up left Grace, Emily & Me... Cos camille last min got work den Vivitha & Priya last min back out due to some stuffs they have..

Met Grace on bus around 12plus.. Went ahead to Bugis first.. Saw Razzan on the way =D

Went to eat lunch at LaiLai~ after that.. =D

Den went to shop around while waiting for Emily to reach..

Went to bugis street~ den to Orchard...

Finally~ bought my assesories, clutch & heels for my prom! Yeah!!

But Cost me alot lo =( Time to save money liao!!

Went to have a drink at 7-11 after that, den went around to take photos and such...(posted on FB)..

Den emily's bad kena burned by the high voltage light...Sorwie!!!....(from Grace & me)...

Headed to Lucky Plaza to wait for Grace's dad's car den HSH~~

Will only work on weekends this week(Schedule given liddat ^^)..

Going back to EK for meeting on thur den Prom on Friday!! =)

Going to meet Camille, Grace n Emily tmr again le!...

Finally our Huang Tai Hou-Camillle

is off le.. =P

Ok! Gtg watch my dvd le..

Tada~!!...

3more days....
i duno~~~
but i only know
ILOVEYOU
&
really want u back!...

2009-11-14T23:14:00.001+08:00

65th days without "xxx"...

Hi! Back home around an hour ago ba...Cousin at home now! Staying over tonight at my place tonight^^

Went to work today at 12pm. Camille went to pei me for lunch... den went to work...

Work at first was ok la.. Until around evening den alot of people come.. So busy till there is no time to rest! However even though is busy, but is fun! With all my colleugues craps and jokes! Haha...

Around 6plus, when to assit Lincoln for party cos he asked me to =.= Said that got alot of people in the party..

Did the same old stuffs at the party but just that got more things to talk with each other.. Cos knew more about each other den also closer le.. With all other colleugues also le =) Yeah!!

Waited for cousin to come so didnt go home on time.. Waited till around 9pm den go off...

Walked off together with Nishan and Lincoln, den went separated ways at the junction. Den both cousin den went 7-11 to grab some food den HSH~~

Tmr still got work... Working midshift.. 12pm-8pm!... After that dun think got plans ba.... ><

Gtg watch dvd le...

Tada~! =)

thinking about somethings,

about u...

& i only can say

ILoveYou!!

2009-11-13T23:51:00.000+08:00

64th days without "xxx"...

Hi all! Yea...Know is the second post for today..But now is 11.40pm..

Got to have a quick post den to bed...Feeling pretty unwell today!

Last day of school for this year!

Although not sure if will i go back next year..But results will reveal next month!.....

Go to school as per usual. Had normal lesson & finally gotten back my report book!

~Found out that i actually improved alot by comparing to mid year and prelim...

Hehe!

After school, went to tamp with Grace for lunch....~Camille PS us =/

Reached home at 3.20pm...

Rushed to bath den rushed of to work...

Luckily i'm still 5mins early =p

Work was as per usual...

Just that i'd learn how to make Folding Balloons...

& is getting closer with my cliques~ ;)

Knocked off from work at 10pm, walked out with XingYing. Went separate ways den i walked home...Was a little drizzling but just felt like walking back... Wasn't wet cos i'd my jacket on...

HSH~~~ =)

-Stomach wasn't feeling well ever since morning. Same old problem came back again...Guess he will know wad i meant...

Didnt eat dinner cos didnt feel like it. Stomach was really killing me...Cant feel if it's full or hungry...So just ate a little of bread and drank water..~ =(

Ok! Gtg sleep le..

Working midshift (12pm-8pm) tmr...

Got 11 parties tmr!!! OMG~~~

Kays! Time to sleep...

Tada~!

(Hope i wont fall sick!)

Just maybe too tire out,

or just to tired...

duno if are u worrying about me...

but just don't~

i duno why or wad or how....

But i just cant stop thinking & missing about you...

I'm sorry but only to say

~iloveyou~ to

YOU~!

2009-11-13T00:19:00.001+08:00

64th days without "xxx"....

Hey! It's 12.20am... Just came home not long ago...

Dinner was great ba =)

It really feels great to have the whole family members be together...Even though is a wedding dinner, but it is overall meaningful!....

Took quite a numbers of photos, already uploaded on FB le.... Wont post those photos here...Lazy lo!

Had a few slips or about half a glass of red wine just now...

Cousin Kathy was even powerful.... Had competition with Ken kor..hahas!

Still alright...Cos most of us knew how to drink more or less, although we are still not 18 yet..

Just probably from young ba.. ;)

Okay den..gtg sleep le.. Got sch & work tmr! Haiz~~~

Nitex!!

Tada~!

since u said is worth thinking & changing,
den i hope u mean it...
hope u're not playing around
or fooling
or fuyan-ing me....
~ILY~

2009-11-12T13:43:00.001+08:00

63rd days without "xxx"...

Hi! Just go back home from sch... Didnt go for POA lesson cos was having a real headache & also i'll be going to my cousin's wedding later..

So i need ample to rest & sleep to cover up for yesterday's sleep....

Didnt post at all yesterday b'cos i was not home.. Was only home at 5.45am & went to bath and prepared for school le...

Finish work at 10pm yesterday, Grace came to fetch me from work =) Headed to Aloha Loyang after that... His DaSao called asking where am i when i was having break... She ask if thought can ask his korkor can come fetch me den go tgt... But was at work so was not possible le...

Reached chalet at 10.20pm...Didnt get to meet his bro & dasao....

Went in to sit and chit-chat around with Vania jie at first.. Den Jayz cam over to talk to grace n me also...

At around 11pm, most of them left le.. So left a few of us...Decided to stay over cos was already very late den Vania jie bu fang xin let me walk out alone..Grace & me den shared 3cans of Archor...Played some card games for awhile after having abit of food with Jayz n Grace =)

Played half way den pei Vania jie, tgt with jayz to help her wash up... Jayz helped to remove make-ups for her den i helped her to wash her hair...Cos her hair was seriously difficult to wash..hahas! Was inside the toilet for almost 45mins..

Slack around after that den went to sleep at around 3plus...(Shared a room with Grace)..Finish drinking the leftover Archor den went to sleep le...

Woke up at 5plus den MeiWei jie drove us home...

Reached home bath den went to school =D

Now home, going to wedding later le.. Tmr is last day of bridging =) Will be working after that till 10pm again!~~~

Currently, going to eat my lunch den go take some rest before evening time...

(Had to recover from the loss of sleep i'd yesterday)

Will update more probably tonight or tmr ba...

Tada~!

for a instance,
i thought....
but i knew,
i will never give up for now...
Just want u to know our love is not a game...
is not a game whereby if u want to put a pause, u can
or
when u want to start again, u reoperate it...
cos not everything or everyone can wait blindly...
~iloveyou~

2009-11-10T22:32:00.002+08:00

61st days without "xxx"...

Hi! Didnt go out for a whole day today. Came home around 3plus....dun feel like going out so just stayed at home to watch my dvd drama =)

Currently 10pm...just came to have a quick post before turning in... Had to sleep early today...Felt tired & sleepy le..

Went to sch as per normal and took my Olevel MT exams today...

(didnt receive any msg from you...maybe u didnt on com or rather, u didnt come to see blog or probably, u are still not ready to care yet!)

I duno...only YOU know!...

Papers were managable...Duno leh... just felt is much more managable den the previous papers that i took in June... Hehe!

*But seriously, got no confident to get a distinction!*

Anyway, will be working tmr! At 4pm to 10pm AGAIN! Ok la.. is fun..but sian! Somemore...tired~~~ Thinking of morning still got sch..haiz~~~ Need someone to be at my side supporting me... But that person......is impossible le ba? I only can hope so...

After work, going Vania jie's ROM at Aloha Loyang!...

Got a msg from XingYing asking me can i work on the eve of hari raya haji...cos said need people in case it will be busy... So just say ok! Hehe!...

Okay! Time for me to go to sleep le.. Lack of sleep this few days.. Really need to gain back some of my sleeping time le..

Tada~!

i really got nothing to say....
just these 6 words...
ILOVEYOU
&
IMISSYOU!!!
Most importantly,
i really NEED you!

LOVE IS BLIND! BUT GIVING UP LOVE IS PATHETIC!

2009-11-10T00:51:00.002+08:00

61st days without "xxx"...

Hey peeps! Not updating my blog today! Going to sleep le.. Is almost 1am...
Not feeling well and there's Olevel Chinese exam tmr..

(I hope u'll send me a msg wishing me all the best, as a BF!..)

Will update tmr! Nitex! ^^

2009-11-08T22:17:00.002+08:00

59th days without "xxx"...

Hi! Just came to update my blog before going to bed.. Is 10pm now.. Had reached home around 3hours ago le...

Didnt feel like going anywhere after work. So just headed home... Had a really hectic day. Body was aching esp my left shoulder. Did stone at work for a few times but is just cant be controlled...

Walk home alone after work..Not sure why, but just suddenly feel like walking home..ALONE...At that point it time, just felt like being alone ba.

Saw GuoXin at junction...He stopped and smiled at me..Dunno why but his smile looked concern...

Went HSH after that...

Headed to bath den ate my dinner...Watched awhile of show and here i'm, updating a post in my blog...

Is just feeling super tired! =/

Still having school tmr den will be working at 4pm tmr...till 10pm. Hmmm~~~

(Just hope someone will be outside fetching me from work..........)

For this week, will be working 5days! Will only be off on tue & thur...However, will have to attend a wedding dinner on Thur...

2more days to my Olevel chinese..

Now, gtg le...Time to go to bed le ba..

Having headache now :'(

my mood s*** today!...
I duno why..
just nothing can make me smile.
suddenly really feel tired of my entire life...
there is no LOOKING FORWARD,
no CHALLENGE(S),
NOTHING!!!!
wad the hell had happened...
*I really love you and plus a little of hatred now*!..
B'cos u dun deserve to say SORRY to me cos u dun deserve it!
So PLEASE STOP saying sorry to me when your words contradicts!!!
[I really need someone to pull me out of hell...
& i hope that person is no one but YOU!]

2009-11-08T01:19:00.001+08:00

58th days without "xxx"...

Hi! Got back home around 45mins ago...is currently going to be 1am...

Went to work today...was in morning shift so woke up at 8am to get ready..was almost late for work b'cos waited for the bus for very long. However,luckily...was still 5mins early. Hahs!

Was super busy today... cos morning only got one GRO and that's me... There's a period of time that i needa do birthday booking with guests & regristration for birthday party with the kids at the same time... So there was quite a no. of time that i need to ask Walton to help me.. Cos he was the nearest to me afterall!...Lincoln came after that cos he was the party co for the morning's party. So yea! At least got someone to help out....

Didnt had a chance to grab anything untill 3plus, when Emily came down to have late lunch with me...

Went back to work after that den knock off at 6pm...half an hour later than my usual time.. Did an unnesasary task for lincoln which is to help him photocopy Walton's ws cos he needs for reference.. =.=

Went to take 89 after that to sk and change 161 to woodland...Was so sleepy but just couldn't sleep. Reached my uncle's house like finally...Ate my dinner and chit-chat with my cousin...was watching tv show then fell asleep...

Uncle drove us home den HSH! =)

Was in the car and saw him & was like thinking, do him even feel something?!?

Currently, wasn't in a good mood... In a confused and unbelieveable mood..!

saying u'll reflect & think it thru..
telling me u want & hope to gain it back...
I just pray u're not saying is for fun...
I can just tell u i'd it le...
Ok!
There's nothing i'm going to do or wants to do le..
U just do whatever u want..
wadever u think is right..
Just go ahead...
believe me..
u'd to wake up!
Is time le!
If not these 2months will just be all waste..
Think abt it!

And for me, i'm truely happy with you!
Although i admit at times, both of us are very xin ku..
But yet, i'm still truely happy..
Cos i know no matter how xin ku it is, i still have YOU...
We still have Each Of Us!....

For me, This Is Wad TRUE HAPPINESS IS!!!

Gtg le..Working same timing tomorrow like today..
Tada~!

2009-11-07T01:53:00.000+08:00

57th days without "xxx"....

Hi! Consider is sat today le.. Cos currently is 1.30am... However, just reached home about an hour ago...So no choice but to post fri's post on sat's date...

As usual, went to sch as per normal...But w/o grace today... cos that sleepy girl actually overslept...so didnt go to sch =.=

After sch, walked home with Emily...

Got home to bath and change...Grace came over den went to meet Emily..Bused 359 to WS for lunch den MRT to Suntec...

Walked and shop around....Need to actually restore my make-up stuffs.. Went to Face Shop instead.. Bought some stuffs with the girls. Really cost me like a bomb but find that is worth ba... Is for long-term usage anyway..

Also, giving myslef a little reward for getting my first pay =) As my pay is given weekly, i earned a total of $300++ for 2weeks! Hee!..

(However, i didnt forget the promise that i made to u that wad am i going to do when i get my first pay when i work at society..However, i hope i'll get this chance..[know wad i meant ba])

Got a lifetime member cos spent above $100...Grace got one too.. ^^

Heartache la..but den like wad i said, a little something for myself & also not everytime liddat ma ^^

Got a 2 free gifts that cost over $100 too...

After that, went to accompany Emily to buy her prom dress that she had eyed for since few weeks ago...

Yes! Guess she was happy ba.. =D

Den, went to send Emily to Mrt cos she had to go home.. So, Grace and me den trained to Orchard... Went to fareast and Grace & me each bought a cardigen...Need to buy cos had to use for my work... Cant use the adidas cos is not Black... =(

Miao called and chat with her for awhile.. Around 8plus, trained back with Grace but i alighted at Tamp cos meeting Miao & co... Accompany miao to go buy her shades cos needa use for driving.. Den went to meet ShunLai & ZhiYuan...Went to Eastlink food court for 'late' dinner...Shunlai's girl came to find us after her work... Slack around den ZY went back first... Walked ShunLai & gf home tgt with Miao. After they went back, Miao requested to slack at 201 for awhile.. Ordered drinks & chit-chat for like an hour+...

Den went HSH after that.. Reached home at 12.30am...

Got nagged by mummy went reached home cos said that tmr i worked morning den asked me slep early..Hee..Understands that mummy cares & worried..So yea! Is ok =D Not everytime so late den come home so is ok la.. Mummy also understands ba?~~~....

Okay! Gtg slep liao le.. Had to wake up early tmr. Working morning! Going down uncle's house after work at woodlands...

Will update more ba~~!

though i may sound happy,
but honestly, my heart doesn't sound happy.
though i may look happy in photos on fb,
but honestly, my heart doesn't look happy.
guess u'll understand wad i mean...
~iloveyou & imissyou~

2009-11-05T23:55:00.000+08:00

56th days without "xxx"....

Hi! Just came back home from work...11.30pm now... Had an extremetly long day today! So tired =(

As usual, went to sch today normally...Den, found out Camille had no voice... (drink more water o.o)..

Rush back home after sch cos needa report for work at 2pm...didnt go for POA lesson after school cos seriously cant make it... =(

Also, today is really a raining day! So is damm cold at work... Brought my favourite adidas jacket to work den found out i am not suppose to wear other colours' jacket except for BLACK... =.=

So didnt wear it and i was really freezing. =X

Was rather busy with paper works...one whole day at work like doing non-stop liddat.=.= Somehow was actually wondering duno is i do too slow or is just that there was really alot of documents to sort & type.. Hehe =P

Nvm la..as long as i'm done with everything..Hee!

Half way thru, Emily & JiatMynn suddenly popped out infront of me..Hahs! Chat awhile and they went off =)

Went to packet food for break den something funny happened when i was half way thru eating.. B'cos mummy & uncle came to find me w/o me knowing anything...(so sweet of them!) Den mummy went to ask my collegue who was at the cashier counter..Den, my blurr collegues and 2 other floaters tot mummy was coming to fetch her kid who was playing there..Den at that point in time, so coincidence that i walked out of the GRO office. My collegue then asked my to make announcement to ask a kid to come out. But i dun want to do it so he did.. den suddenly i heard him announcing my name =.= End up...it was just a MALU act... Den everyone was there laughing upside down..Haha! =D

After that, mummy & uncle went off den carry on with my work... Till then, all of us still couldn't stop laughing...LOL^^

Knock off at 10pm den walked to inter with Hafiza(duno spelling correct or not)... Took bus 359 den HSH =)

p.s...while working, suddenly my head spin....giddy!~~

Tomorrow, going sch as per normal den will go town with my girls... Got to get myself a black jacket.. if not i'll freeze to death during work =.=

(dun feel like buying for myself..but rather.........[know wad i mean]) Hmmm...

My weekends this week: Working morning shift from 9.30am-5.30pm...

Plans are not confirm yet for both days!....

Okay! Guess going to rest le ba.. Is going midnight now is 15mins time..

Tada~!

“Love is patient,

love is kind.

It does not envy,

it does not boast,

it is not proud.

It is not rude,

it is not self-seeking,

it is not easily angered,

it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects,

always trusts,

always hopes,

always perseveres.”

And morever,Yes!

ILOVEYOU!!!

“My heart to you is given: Oh, do give yours to me; Well lock them up together, And throw away the key.”

2009-11-04T23:33:00.001+08:00

55th days without "xxx"...

Hi! Currently is 11.15pm and had just gotten home not long ago...

As per normal, went back for sch for bridging.. ~Boring & lesson was real dry except for SS....~

Nothing much to say about sch la.. Hahs!

Grace came to my house after sch to do something powerslides for SS... She den went home at around 2plus... Victor uncle came to help us adjust the wireless connection prob.. And...Yeah! Got my wireless connection back finally after so long.. =)

Miao called den talked with her for almost 2hours ba... Hee.. Den got to put down cos needa prepare to go Bugis to meet Vania Jie =D Recently contacted each other..hahs..She also getting ROM next wed le =) So happy for her! Most likely will be goin for her ROM at Aloha Loyang next week ba ;)

Met her at Bugis at 6plus with her godsister...Went to eat Steamboat for dinner and was real full! Haha...Walked around helping her to hunt for her heels for ROM and shop around..Den they sent me to MRT den i went to take my train home..

Train was real crowded =(

Den suddenly duno at which station, saw Zipeng...He came up to me den chit chat all the way back to Pasir Ris...Keep talking craps lor him =.=

Went separate ways after that, went to take 359 and HSH =D

Tomorrow....will be another long long day for me =(

Will go sch as per normal, den will be working at 2pm to 10pm =(

Tired~~~Haiz!

But is ok la.. it will make my time fly faster =D

Okay! Gtg le...Tada~!

p.s [from now till my Olevel MT, i still left 4days!]

time flies...

i hope u'll really conquer de fear u had..

i duno wad's more that i can say le..

I only can say that:

ILOVEYOU!!

Muackz~~

2009-11-03T20:37:00.000+08:00

54th days without "xxx"...

Happy 2Years & 7Months!

Hi!...As per usual, went to sch today....but...with a heavy head! Wasn't feeling very well...but had no choice but to drag myself to sch...

Lessons as per normal but didnt carry on with poa lesson at 2pm... Finished sch at 12.30pm and went to ws for lunch with Shirleen & went straight home...body is still aching though my flu was feeling better le... But my stupid stomach gave me problem again =( Had a very bad stomach today! Haiz~~~

Reached home and rest...

Went to meet Emily at 6plus for awhile cos she was stuck at home...hahs!

[Emily: "hey superwoman, where got a friend when u gave a call den she immediately appeared in front of u de...Haha!!! =D]

Currently, just finished my dinner =)

Will stop here for now! And now.....

the whole part below is specially for u:

Today, we stepped into our 31months. However, things are a little different... B'cos both are not at each other sides...

Didnt think of receiving anything from u...& i even told Shirleen in the noon when she asked me how am i feeling...I told her this "He wont sms anything about the 3rd de"....I swore i really ans this back to her... Den...she replied me this "You wont know"... Honestly speaking, i didnt even go and think of i'll receive your msg... Until u really texted me...But i knew, that doesn't mean anything.

These 2months without u, i'd seriously think thru alot alot...Honestly speaking that i didnt cry for more than 5times within this 2months..Cos i knew, i need a clear mind.. All i did these 2months was only: Work, School, Goin out with my girls or.....stoned when alone!

Also, whenever i go anywhere or do anything, it will always refects back to YOU, to US!

"When i clumsily knock my head against something accidentely,

i thought of your anxious expression and your immediate action(help me rub rub & tease me as a sotong!)....

When i almost trip and fall,

i remembered the way that u'd immediately pull me to your side and how u hug me tight...

When i am so sleepy and fell asleep suddenly,

i dream and think of how you had carry me up to bed and cover my body with a blanket....and the kiss that u peck on my forehead...

When i'm sick,

i think of your anxious and worried expression, fetching me to see a doctor and feeding me my medicine...

When i'm having a gastric,

i think of how you scolded me and how u say me in a very worry tone... Think of how u immediately go and buy something for me to eat...

When i cry and felt upset,

i'll think of how tight u hug me, letting me feel secure and protected...

When i did something stupid or silly,

i'll think of how loud u'll laugh at me and tease me...

When i feel afraid,

i'll think of how u'll encourage me and the kiss and hug u'll give me....

The when and the thinking, it will just always reflects back to me...and i had known! Everything is different now!"

Didnt know how or wad will the outcome be...but since u told me about ur doubt and fear,

i'd ans u le...so is just up to u...

I wont sms u about the anni msg cos whenever i want to say, is here le...

Similarly, i'll wish u all the best for everything for now.. 2 weeks from here, we will see how...

However, wad i want to say is, if 2weeks later, nothing is changed, i can only say that i'll surrender le... But i can only say that..

"IS NOT WORTH TO END OF JUST LIDDAT!"

This is not only my point... Others(Outsiders) think it this way too...

That's all that i want to say...

ILOVEYOU & I'D NEVER GIVE UP...U know de!

HAPPY 31st MONTHS!!!

2009-11-02T21:37:00.001+08:00

~edited~

I hope when i on my com tomorrow and click on our blog's link, something new will be there!
OR
when i wake up tmr, something will be display on my phone!
(truthfully n from the bottom of the heart)

I just wish and hope!

2009-11-02T20:00:00.001+08:00

53th days without "xxx"...

Hi! 7.30pm now...nothing to do so decide to post something on my blog... Guess it'd already become a habit le ba...

As usual, Monday blues~~Went to sch as per normal...Wasn't feeling well in school today...had a very bad flu and bad headache...like wad i expected, i'm really sick =(

And...the worse thing is, i'd tons of hwks waiting for me to complete... =/

After sch, when to WS wid Grace n co, cos emily n me had to go return library books...Grace n me left to ehub after that, went back to EK to pass them something for the collection of my pay den went to meet Camille, Weijin & ZongDa...ate mac for lunch den headed to cathay for 2.30pm movie-"My sister's keeper"...is nice! Touching~~(4 stars) Emily came to join us for movie also.. =)

Took bus home with Grace n Emily after that, cos grace had to rush for work...den walked home with Emily den HSH....

Just finished dinner so watching tv now...

p.s. Both camille n me are sick... Must rest well le.

Just guess i'm over tired for both work, school etc ba... =( Hmmm...

4more hours to the 3rd...

our "2yrs 7mths"...

i wont send u anything...

nor will post on our blog...

cos i dun want to be the first.

nor i dun want to have nothing...

cos i'm confused still...

so i'll see wad u'll do yourself...

be it posting or not,

or smsing or not...

is up to u...

but u should know wad i want in my heart..

"Death is just Death,

Nobody understands it...

Similarly,....

Loving you is just Loving you...

No one will understands it too...

Except for YOU and ME!!!"...

p.s. ONE more week to 'O' level MT examination.

2009-11-01T21:29:00.000+08:00

52nd days without "xxx"...

I can swear that i'm super duper tired now! Half dead!

Body is aching all over my body and is feeling very cold when bro is super warm...

And....i guess, i'm falling sick! =(

For now, let me talked about yesterday's first!

Woke up at 10plus and met Shirleen n Emily for lunch... Headed to work with Shirleen and emily headed HSH...

Started work at 4 with a super busy start... Halloween was super happening! Seeing cute little kids dressing up in devils,angels etc...Just hope i could dress up too..But too bad! I cant~~~...Work was super busy like wad i mentioned above,but everything ended with a slow and smooth process..

Work till 10pm den Emily n Grace came to meet me...

Went to buy 4 tickets for "My Girlfriend is An Agent" at 12.20am...

Miao and Kim were joining intially but didnt in the end cos they went to AMK hub for Jennifer's Body!

Slack around at dte after that and only had Sushi for dinner...walked over to WS to wait for Camille to finish work.. waited till around midnight and den we headed back to ehub for our movie! =D

And...the movie was super NICE and FUNNY... (5 stars) ..I seriously dun mind watching it again!

(MUST WATCH!)

The movie ended at around 2am den headed to coffee express to slack and such.... Camille, grace and me cannot tahan as we got work so just headed to as all of us was tired except for our superwoman-Emily!...

Reached home at 4am in the morning n headed to bed..

This morning, woke up at 8plus and prepared to go to work... Emily was so sweet that she sent me to work.. hahs... Was still feeling sleepy during work but everything was fine after that... Assit Lincoln during party and everything was smooth =).... Was pretty busy but there was 2 things that made my day happy =D

Firstly, when to ask for a party guest for her full payment, and though she was busy, she turned to me and told me that "I trust you with the payment so you dun need to go thru with me"..... When i heard it, i was so glad...

Secondly, there was a couple who wanted to book a b'dae party for their child and only talked thru the phone with her once... The female host actually remembered my name and trusted me with all the details... When said she wanted to confirm her booking this coming week and as i'll be working on Thursday, Sat n Sun, she told me that she will come down only when i'm at work to comfirm it with only me.. The couple was nice..real nice =)

What actually made my day was that as i was an newbie who just started work 2 weeks ago, there is actually guests who trusted me even when they knew i was an newbie.. =D Haha!!

Okay! Finished work at 6.30pm and headed to CS to change my camera and headed HSH....

Currently it is 9.15pm... will go to bed soon... real soon.. Cos... cant tahan le.. Super tired and weak now...

So.. gtg! Bridging tmr... =/

Just 2 weeks of sch...(JIAYOU!)

Tada~!

Went home alone today...was feeling super weak when on the way home...

Is just like i could just go black out anytime... And seriously,there was a moment that i hope that i can just go black out... Cos probably once i wake up from my black out, YOU will be there..

For your info, it is a secret i'm going to reveal now...

"What i can only do now is to work and work to numb myself for not thinking of anything...To spend time with my precious girls are the only times i could put our thing aside out of my mind..."

For now, numbing myself is just the best medicine i could actually find...! ='(

As for u to know, all my mind was YOU all along just now...

When i'm feeling so weak, so sick and so tired.. My mind is just YOU!

Sometimes i was thinking, do u still think of me nowadays? Do you actually still know wad task you're holding on now?

And....

Do u remember that just another 2 more days....is our 2years & 7months (31months)??

For now, i just want to go to bed...hugging the 3 "children" we had and have a good rest...

dun let the second chance of reflection go to waste...

For you to suddenly initiate to me you wanted one more month,

it clearly mean something...

and i bet it shows something...

just that we haven find out..

But wad i'd find out is.....

ILOVEYOU!!!

2009-10-31T21:51:00.002+08:00

Wont be going home tonight! =p...

Will update tomorrow!

Tada!
(nevertheless, i still love and miss you alot alot!)

2009-10-31T00:10:00.003+08:00

51st days without "xxx"...

Hi! Now is 11.50pm...reached home around 50mins ago... hee..

A super duper tiring day for me!

Intially worked till 8pm but had OT until 10pm and knocked off together with Huda.. =D

First day knowing her and she is super nice =D

Today's work was ok..

Emily came to pei me during my break time.. Thanks lady! =D

After that, went back to work...was ok la(like wad i'd mentioned above) but made lots of b'dae bookings for guests! =D (a sense of satisfaction!)

However, picked up a call around 6plus and got a super unreasonable scolding from this particular guest for nothing.. =.= Just due to some stupid stuff which dun really concern me lor.. But den is ok la...everything settle after that with the help of Huda =D

(first time that i got such a harsh scolding from someone in my life.. Had to act strong & finally understands how outside world is... However, although acted strong but i still hope to be hug in your arms and can be like a small child...b'cos only with u, i can be like that and feel carefree.. But....will i get this chance from u again? hmmm)

After work, walked together with Huda to inter and went separate ways... went to Superdog to wait for camille to finish work and left together... Went HSH after that! =D

For tmr: starting work at 4pm. Meeting Shirleen & Emily before work....Will end work at 10pm den meeting my girls for midnight movie! Yeah ^^

For Sunday: Starting work at 10am...Assiting Lincoln for a party and one with Hajar too =) Will end work at 5.30pm.. ~No plan(s) after that~

Okay! time for me to go off liao le.. Gtg catch a nice sleep before having a long long day tmr!

Tada~!

duno wad u're avoiding

when miao told me some stuff..

But believe that u had your reasons

for not replying to the msn with kim that day...

duno how have u been but

hope u will really do wad u told

me for this one month...

"~Things that u always want to do will be always there to wait for u to complete it..

However, once you gave up someone whom that might bring u a bright future,

this thing will be left INCOMPLETE FOREVER with regrets!~".

2009-10-29T22:47:00.001+08:00

50th days without "xxx"...

Posting a very simple n short post. B'cos due to some connection problem, i cant online to my internet. Now at emily's house posting my blog a little.

Tomorrow wont be going to sch le:(

cos got work at 12. So no choice lo...

After work, not sure wad plan i have.

OK! Will stop here for now...

WIll update more tomorrow, or hopefully when my connection recovers.

Gtg!

Tada!

Things that we want to do,

will always be there waiting for us to complete it.

However, once giving up someone that
you have truely cherish and may bring you future,

it'll be gone forever n will be left incomplete!

2009-10-28T21:35:00.003+08:00

49th days without "xxx"...

Hi! another day pass again...feeling rather empty, like something missing from my life...

Feeling sort of depressed and reluctant this few days... Although indeed there's laughter, fun at some parts of the day(s), but my true feeling is EMPTY!

Today: went to sch as per normal, still the same old stuff..-sian! After school, was summoned by bookshop auntie to talk one to one... chit-chat awhile den Shirleen & Grace came to find me...when home together den Shirleen came over to my house to do her resume.. She went home den i went to get ready and bath... Went tamp with dad & bro cos bro wana buy lappy... Went to hunt for my cybershot camera also... and yea! got the one i like with $500+...it also come with a free screen protecter, 8GB memory card, memory card holder, tripod stand and a camera pouch... It's very worth lo =D Also, got the colour i like alot..-Rose/Pink! =D

Bro bought a hp lappy... Ok la.. he likes it so ya!

Went for dinner after that-Swensen.... It has definitely been a long long time since i last eat Swensen... It's yummy except for the chicken cutlet..

After that, went HSH...

Currently, my right eye got a little swollen and very painful =(..... Also, got a news that ah gong was admitted to hospital again this afternoon.... =( Hmmm.....

(somehow, i really hope u're right there for me.. as least i wont be afraid...but... all i can do is to wait and see...) :'(

Tomorrow, will finish sch at 11.55am.. still having decide where to go after that...

So...will update again tomorrow ba.. hmmm...

Tada~!

for a moment, i felt lost..

lost to somewhere which i felt lonely & isolated...

keep wondering why one month again?

will it remain the same or it will turn to become better(positive)?

all sorts of thoughts flowing thru me in and out...

awhile lost, awhile awake..

tell me, what should i do..

all i know is, i really need u,

i really hope to have another chance given for us,.....

for this r/s....

I DON'T MIND BEING ALONE.

ONLY IF ALONE WAS WITH

YOU!

2009-10-27T21:21:00.000+08:00

48th days without "xxx"...

Hi! Nothing much today...meet Grace & co and went to school together as usual... Same...boring~ cos there is nth to do =.=

After school, walked home with Grace and went HSH. Did some changed to blog and Grace & Camille came over... camille went off first as she got work at 4. After that both Grace n me went to find Emily and went to dte..

Went back to EK to confirm me schedule for friday again.. And....conclusion is, i'll not be goin school le cos i got work at 12pm-8pm.... but is ok la.. friday is "use your hand compaign" at school anyway... Also, its HALOWEEN! Work will be fun! I guess! =D

Went to slack at dte den to tamp with Grace cos Emily went home first... After that, Raith came to find Grace so went HSH le cos dun want to be "dian deng pao!".. Haha! xD

Ate dinner at home and search for songs n upload photos to fb...

Will post to here then...watching tv now...

Tada~!

[Miao said maybe she gotten take private Os to take her course she wants... ask me for opinion~? my ans will be.. Will support u like how u'd supported me =D Teehee! ]

i miss you for everything.
i miss all our past be unhappy or happy.
i love you for who you really are...
i accepted for who you truely are...
be it (-) or (+) i've know i did my best.
for all i can say,
i really want our love to be back,
to carry on forming our path,
improving in it,
to the place it will truely belongs to us...
iloveyou!!

2009-10-26T22:52:00.002+08:00

47th days without "xxx"...

Hi! didnt blog yesterday cos was super tired... now....SUPER ANGRY! B***h!!

Before saying the reason why i'm angry, i'll blog about yesterday's first... Work as usual, den ZY came to meet me after work... Miao n Kim came to find us and went Tea Valley for dinner... Joke, crap and talk around...

Eileen came after that =.=... pei miao and kim to smoke (exclude me!) Walk slowly to ws's bk for drink and chat there awhile... Atmosphere was down for me but seriously will think thru wad Kim n Miao said to me... exclude ZY's jokes la..Hahs..

After that, ZY went back and we walked to meet Yenling to get something from her... went to her house the toilet den Miao n co walked me home.. Reached home at 11.45pm, bath and went to bed!...

(TO Miao & Kim: thank you for talking to me and be fully by my side supporting me! I'll reflect and think it thru seriously... =D )

Today!

Back to school today...~ Boring lo... didnt do much in class also..

After school, went to PS-Cathay with Grace cos she wna go for interview... End up, Yeah! she got in! congrats! =D

Went for lunch and headed to Bugis... Got something for both of us and went to look for something.. Met Raith and train back to Pasir Ris...went to slack around den HSH!

Ate my dinner w/o rice...hee!

Now updating blog and talking to Emily on phone about........!! (damm pissed)

To YOU-(her): If u really dunno the whole truth behind the whole story, pls dun make it up yourself....Pls find out the truth yourself before saying or doing somethings behind OUR backs... Writing things on plurk!!??....It dun concern u for goodness sake! Is our thing so both of us will solve it.. Though i duno wad is in ur mind now, but i suggest to u that dun be a busybody!

Thanks! =)

Anw, gtg post till here den..

Time for bed soon. =D

Tada~!...

always thinking how complicated the whole thing is,
i believe u didnt betray me behind my back for telling any of them..
nor i dun think ur collegues will tell any of them anything...
i dun even know wad is wrong with everything now....
for her wanting to be the destroyer or wad..
I DUNNO!
wad i know is, i really hope u could do something about it,
and for u to be by my side...~~~

2009-10-25T01:25:00.000+08:00

45th days without "xxx"...

Hi! went home around 3 hours ago.. was resting for awhile before updating my blog.. Wasn't feeling well cos had a very bad headache since afternoon..

Went to work as usual today.. Was super busy till i only have a little time for a small bite.. Starting to feel the pressure in work and everything went pretty went for me after all...

(sometimes, i really hope u are there..that's when, i wont feel afraid..)

Started to get abit shack due to my headache, den had a very very bad gastric on and off... Had no choice but to tahan till 6plus... Was supposingly to end work at 6pm but drag till 40mins later as it was really busy with parties going on.. run around a few times to find people even though my gastric was killing me....

End work 40mins late and rush to meet Emily as she was waiting for me outside... went down to harbourfront to find Vania jie to talk awhile and she actually invited me to her wedding ROM.. =D

Went off to suntec as soon as i finish talking with her and went for my dinner...

After finishing my dinner, that's when i found out that it had been a long time since i had such a full dinner le...

Cabbed home with emily cos were really tired.. Felt cold and fell asleep awhile on the way home... Then when HSH!..

[Sorry emily for waiting for me for such a long time that u cant manage to buy your prom dress...] =(

Reached home and rest..just recovered from a very bad flu this morning and now having slight headache... Tomorrow working from 10am-6pm again.. Will again be a busy and hectic day... Hmmm...

Meeting miao probably after work..

Hope i'll get better tmr..

For now, gtg to bed le...

Update more tmr if can =)

Tada~!

when feeling sick,
when feeling tired,
when the pressure from work started to fall on me,
all i want is u to be by my side physically and mentally...
will u be back?
will u return?
i really dunno...
but..
i really want to and ready to
& i'll pray n hope...
~WoAiNi...Muackz~

2009-10-24T00:20:00.001+08:00

44th days without "xxx"...

Hi all! Reached home at 11.30pm and just finish bathing around 10mins ago... and now....5mins to midnight! Hahas..(rather lame..i know..) However, only can use this to make myself happy abit... =/

Usual cycle...

Woke up > met Grace & Camille for lunch > off to work at 12pm...

Work was indeed great! & guess i'm starting to get a grip out of it =D

Got my first tentative birthday booking thru phone call today and my first confirmation birthday booking too with the help of Xing Yin who is guiding by my side.. Hee! Hurray!!!

[Big thanks thanks to both Sofia & Xing Yin...who had guided me all along and taught me patiently when i'm blur... hahs..] =D

Also, two of my collegues asked for my student pass to buy kfc & fish n co.. hahs.. LOL~

Finish work at 8pm as usual and when to meet Grace...

Waited for bus at the bus stop and saw Zipeng.. he saw me and used his hand to give a very "HARD" pad on my head and walked off =.=

Went Emily's house tgt with Raith(grace's aiai)...

Slack around & Camille came after that.. Fool around and crap here and there..

& Know something... ONE incident happened that made all of us laugh like mad!!...

Laugh non stop till all our stomachs are aching...

It's because, i was lying on the sofa and when i wanted to get up, and grace was then standing up, i accidentely push the chair she is sitting on and when she wanted to sit on it.. she fell down and hit her butt against the floor.. hahs.. And all of us started to laugh like mad...

(Sorry la grace but is really very funny) haha..!

Slack awhile and went HSH with Camille leaving Grace there cos Emily dun let her go off..hahs.. Zipeng requested to come over to Emily's house to send me home when sms-ing him.. but turn down the request as it was only 2blocks away.. =) Thanks him afterall!

For tomorrow, starting work at usual 10am and will be ending work slightly early at 6pm... same goes for Sunday...Will be super busy cos there will be Birthday Parties going on... & have rush the guest list and hope the parent will email on time tomorrow... (fingers cross)

Meeting Emily tomorrow after work to Suntec to pei her go buy her dress.. den no plans after that... will see how den =)

Sunday will den most likely be meeting Miao after work ba.. duno yet.. haven confirm with her yet.. Will see then ba =D

Ok! gtg rest early le... have to wake up at 8plus tomorrow... =.=

Tada~!

dear,
really miss u alot..
lots of happy things & unhappy things happened w/o u
& really hope i could share with u...
not as a friend but a bf..
something is always missing w/o u...
~ILY~ Muackz <333

2009-10-22T23:09:00.001+08:00

43rd days without "xxx"...

Hi! A day of work today again...Did more work today.... compared to yesterday boring day.. Haha.. Started to get a hold of it.. and most importantly, started to enjoy it =)

More work tomorrow ba.. i believe.. Will be working from 12pm-8pm... However, will be meeting Grace and Camille at 11am for lunch before work =D

Will be very busy on weekends...lots of birthday party will be hold on weekends in the park...O.o..wonder how will it be like...

Starting school again for the next 3 weeks =.=...hmm.. Doubt will be working next week except for Fri, Sat and Sun ba...

Hahas.. Kindergarden kids came for field trips today and they are really super duper cute! They dance around with the music and had lots of fun.. hahas... Assit kids that came in to play from 4.30-5.30.. let them drawing and colour at WS printed by us(GRO)... And i can admit that i'm starting to love kids more and more!! HAHA!! =D

Also, love my girls for coming down to pei me for dinner at Tea Valley just now..

LOVE THEM LOTS!!!...

Saw Sc, brandon & Xj while eating.. waved and they went off..

After dinner, went to WS to accompany Camille to check her schedule.... Den went HSH(home sweet home) after that...

Okay..gtg le.. update more tmr if can ba...

Tada~!

"Stop pretending that the relationship has to be perfect

BUT

to start realizing that perfection only comes in giving into true love!".

missing u every single day...

want everything to be back like how it is to us...

given another chance,

i wont want to lose u again...

i hope~

i pray~

as i'm partly ready for who u are,

just keeping from u...,

not telling u...

AND

~iloveyou~

2009-10-21T22:35:00.003+08:00

42nd days without "xxx"...

Hi! Just came back from work.. Super tired now~~~

Woke up at 7.45am in the morning.. Went to prepare den down to meet Emily n Grace for breakfast... Those sweet two girls actually sent me to work.. hahs.. Thanks! =D

Reported at 9.51am and went to punch in my card.. Supervisor was friendly.. got me an new uni..went to change den reported to my senior - Sofia... Asked me to read up the info and such.. Was boring for the first 3hours.. sat infront of the com and stone.. Sofia was fun and joked around with me.. hahas.. slowly, i wasn't that afraid anymore ^^

Another senior came after that at 2pm, her name was Sin Yee(think so)... she was very nice.. Went to prepare b'dae presents for kids with her and taught me lots of things..

Went to be in charge of the kids' activities for an hour den Debbie(DM) taught me how to fold balloons.. Was scared in the first place but slowly overcome it =D

Half way thru, miao called... but pick up fast to let her know i'll call back later.. Didnt pick up my phone till now.. wonder why she find me for?.. hee..

Crews there was nice and friendly even and office management... And know something, i am the YOUNGEST there.. hee! =P

After 10hours of work, finally punch out at 8.10pm and went to meet eileen for dinner... HSH after that =D

Will be working for this whole week to Sunday!

Friday not so sure yet ba... =X

Also, the most important thing before i forget..

B passed his TP test! =D So happy for him when i received his msg when i was stoning in front of my com at work just now.. ^^ Hee! Eventually knew he was going to make it ar.. Hahs..

Ok! Guess will just go and rest to wait for my hair to dry before i sleep ba.. Tomorrow- 10am to 8pm(full shift) again.. hahs! Kindergarden students will be coming for field trips.. Looking forward to see those cute little ones!

And know something, I ENJOY WORKING THERE!! =D Hope everything will go on smoothly ba ;D

For now, will just end here =D Hope i wont be alone for dinner tmr... =(

Tada~!

the last try for this 1month...

duno wad outcome will it be like,

for as far as i know,

i'm slightly ready for your change le,

just didnt want to tell u only.

I really pray n hope

nothing will eventually turn worse a month later...

And......

i'm really happy that u got your driving licence...

use it wisely ya.

~Iloveyou~